Stray puppy

Don't you feel like that some days?

Little, lost, scruffy, mangy puppy dog.

Your presence isn't minded but not wanted either.
People look at you with interest for a minute, no more - after all you are a stray; there are a million and one stray puppies on the streets.
Suffocated by a sense of gloom: It's either live like this in the streets forever, or wait patiently in the SPCA until someone potentially abusive comes to adopt you, or get put down.

-.-''

Some days.

Only some days, but that is enough to tell you that these feelings exist anyway, but lurk beneath your happy facade most of the time, only to surface at the most inappropriate of times (like in the middle of exam season? Swt.)

Today I skipped LAN do complete my english assignment.
After about 40 minutes of doing absolutely nothing, I just slumped over in my chair in defeat. I sat motionless for almost 10 minutes (undoubtably pissing off anyone who was waiting for a free computer ._.)

Again I wonder, what the hell am I doing here?

Cutting class AGAIN to do some mundane assignment that I don't particularly care about. (I did, but somehow the enthusiasm faded after a while.)
Not knowing what I'm going to do tomorrow, not having any short nor long term goals in life.

It sucks, I tell you, to have a lack of passion for anything, for anyone.

Don't you wonder what you're living for sometimes?
Not that I'm suicidal or anything (har. har. right.) but most of the time I wonder what I'm going to do for the next 70 years or so of my life.

Ling has her fashion, photography and movies to love.
Sui has her maths, physics and her social ways to keep her happy.
Even JL, who feels down occasionally, constantly (I do not know for sure) has her music to fill that void when she needs it the most.

I don't know.

There's nothing I particularly love to do.
I seem to express a mild interest in a wide range of things, but I have yet to find something that just clicks.

Something, (however cheesy it may sound) that when you wake up each day, gives you something to look forward to in the near or distant future.

I'm going to finish learning this piano piece today.
I'm going out with my friends tomorrow.
I'm going to be a world-reknown fashion designer some day.

Nope. I don't have any of those.

I don't look forward to anything, besides getting out of Malaysia ASAP.
And even then what am I going to do?
Continue this boring life in Melbourne?
Given, there's Krispy Kreme and Boost Juice to provide temporary happiness - but after a while I'm back at square one.

What am I going to do with the rest of my life?

This feeling has deepened so much so I can't even express a mild interest in my studies any longer. The enthusiasm I had during the first month of college seems to have disappeared.

I screwed up my Accounts paper considerably. Teacher did not look very pleased with my results.
Today's IT...I left half the paper blank cause I ran out of time.
Yesterday's maths...

Form 4/5 Add Maths exam repeat scenario.

I began the paper rather cheerfully - the boy sitting next to me was confident enough not to bring in a cheat sheet at all; not that I needed mine, but I brought it in anyway so as not to seem overconfident. I silently challenged myself to do equal or better than him, even if I'll never know his results anyway.

I started on the first question.
Simple differentiation. I finished the question. The answer looked doubtfully back at me.

I stared at it for a few seconds, then flipped through the rest of the exam booklet.
A sinking feeling occured in my tummy as I saw the seemingly neverending questions. I glanced at the clock.

I was never going to finish it in time.

...

And I didn't.

My mind just whited out again.
!!!

WTF LA.

I thought I'd finally gotten over the fear that kept my Add Maths results on the brink of failure throughout the past two years. But no. Here's history insisting on repeating itself.

=.=

Of course, I was in no mood for anything after that.
I had managed to convince myself that my ESL exam was screwed up too.

Wargh.
Even I'm sick of all this whining. (Ha, I can annoy myself. Excellent.)
But I have nothing else to do currently.

I skipped LAN to do English.
I can't remember what happened during Maths.
I spent Accounts period checking out everyone's outfit (presentation day)
I slept during Econs, feeling rather miserable.
I fled ESL class 10 minutes after it started, not bothering to wait for my friends to get their consultation over with.

Then I camped the remainder of ESL at the library alone.
SWT.

PATHETIC, NO?

ARGHHHHHH

HELP MEEEEEE T________________T

A pathetic end to a pathetic day:

I came home, skipped lunch and flopped down to sleep.
I just woke up and I'm not feeling any better. -.-
Gonna die a chocolatey death later.

Until then,

Have fun with your lives.

I don't love you.


Song of the Day:

"Come Out and Play - The Offspring"

Yawn. Sad.

ZZZ

In the previous post, I mentioned that Swarna and I pranked Sam today.

...
He was just pissing me off.

The first time he told me I make such an attractive boy I thought it was hilarious.
The second time, I was amused.
The third time, I was indifferent.

The fourth time, I felt like grabbing him and smashing his head into the wall and breaking his nose while he cried for mercy.

=/

Now, he has taken to calling me 'hey, brother!'

"Hey, brother!"
"Heyyyyyyyyyyyy, little sis! How ya doing?"
"..."
"Gotcha."

The first time was okay.
Then he did it again in the cafeteria while I was hurrying my Econs homework.

"Hey brother!"
"...One day, I'm am going to lose my temper, and trust me, you. will. NOT. like. it."
"..."

I snarled.
Swarna said:

"He's really testing you isn't he?"
"The first time was funny. It's getting really, really, old now."

Sam walked off.
There was an Econs text book lying on the table.

"Hey, isn't this Sam's?"
"I don't care."
"We'd better give it back to him."
"Mmhmm..."

I was still irked about the whole thing.

"Hey, let's ask him to lend us his text book later!"
"Ah? Haha, okay!"

And thus, evil plan hatched from the seedlings of darkness planted in my mind.

On the way to class, I ran into him and his group of friends again.

"Hey, brother!"
"Heyy, sis. You want some milk?"

I wave my carton of chocolate milk cheerfully, thinking of what I was going to do to him later.

"I really think you need some...want some? I can definitely spare mine! For you."

I looked him up and down critically.
Emphasis being on the 'down.'

"... ...Yer! Don't do this la!"
"Huh. Shorty."

I turned and walked to class.

Swarna scribbled on a piece of orange post-it:

"Sam can I see your econs book?"

I snorted.
I tapped Terrence who was sitting in front of me and he passed the note to Sam.
Sam started rummaging around.

In his backpack.
No.

On the table.
No.

In the drawer.
No.

He looked each place about 3 times and stood up with a panicked look on his face.

"Teacher, I left something downstairs."

He hurried to the door.

"Steph! Steph! Did you hear what he said? Call him! CALL HIM!"

Swarna said all this in a frantic whisper.

"Hm?"
"He's gonna go downstairs to get his book! Tell him we have it!"
"No."
"TELL HIM!"
"That's for being such a pain in the ass."
"Steph you're so bad!"

I snicker.

Sam pulled the door shut behind him and we had to stifle our laughter.

"Steph!!!"
"Okay OKAY I'll CALL him!"

...nombor yang anda dail...

I hung up.

"Okay, phone's off, it's his fault now. ^^"
"Steph!!!"
"Heh."

Our classroom was on the 4th floor, the cafeteria was on ground floor.

I smiled happily just thinking about it.

"Swarna, can I have a post-it?"
"Sure."

I scribbled.

Thanks for the book, Sam! =)

I stuck the neon orange post-it prominently on the black-and-white cover of his photocopied Econs book.

I tap Terrence again.
He handed ithe book to Tung Herr, who was sitting beside Sam.

Right then, the classroom door opened to reveal a breathless and worried looking Sam.

Wordlessly, the book was handed over to him.

"Shit."

He glared at us.
Swarna giggled.
I sip my chocolate milk innocently with a 'who, me?' look plastered on my face.

Ah.
Sweet, sweet revenge.

The look on his face?
Priceless. =x


Song of the Day:

"Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis"

I hate it when people annoy me.
They make me do bad, bad things. x.x

I don't understand!

Today, Swarna and I tried out that tarot webbie again.

She can make it work already! I still can't. T_T

It is seriously freaky.
I don't understand how it works.

www.peteranswers.com

You type in a question, and you will get the answer if 'you believe in Peter completely with no doubt in your mind at all.'

!!!

What is Steph wearing?
White T and jeans

What does Steph look like?
Tall and white (? Close enough)

What was Steph drinking just now?
Chocolate milk

OMG. I had Goodday chocolate milk!

What am I thinking of?
'can i pass up my econs today?'

OMG. It's true!

What is Shaun doing?
Playing when he's not supposed to.

He was playing Habbo hotel during IT class. T_T

What is Ms Sue doing?
Teaching, duh.

Our IT teacher.

What is Terrence doing?
Chewing gum.

He was!

What colour is Danish's shirt?
Blue.

It was!

Kenny and Terrence were like OMG SO SCARY!
Kenny pulls out his water bottle.

"Ask him what I'm doing now."

He drinks.

What is Kenny doing now?
Drinking water.

I snort with laughter as Kenny choked.
Swarna quickly typed in:

Why is Steph laughing?
Cuz I'm freaky.

Where are you now?
In Steph's hair.

O_O''

I quickly typed in:

Why are you in my hair?
I'm afraid I cannot answer that.

...

What am I doing for english?
Ask someone else and I may answer.

I poke Swarna.

"Ask the same question!"

She typed it in.

What is Steph doing for english?
That topic is uninteresting.

WTF!

Terrence was like: Quick, quick! Ask him what Sheng is thinking!

Steph: I don't think Peter can answer that. He reads minds...he can only answer what Swarna KNOWS already - like whether she was gonna pass up econs!

What is Sheng thinking now?
I'm not a mind reader, fyi.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! HE HEARD ME HE HEARD ME!

Today, Swarna and I played a prank on Sam.

What book did I steal today?
Sam's Econs book.

Oh. My. Freaking. GOD.
AHHHH! SO FREAKY!

Why can't I make it work for me?

I only get computer generated answers like:
Trust more.
You do not deserve an answer if you don't trust me.
Believe more.

= =

Yerr.

It is so so cool. x.x
But damn freaky.
Mommy says got 'gui' one. But it's online!
How does it work?
Cyberkinetic waves?
Explain! T_T

It gives such specific answers too.
That day Raga typed in:

What is Adeline doing tonight?
Going to buy a tattoo for her graduation night.

...it was correct.

We tried it on different computers, different locations, different times - it still works!
For those who believe that is.
Swarna can type something in and she gets an answer.
I use the SAME computer and type:

'You don't believe in me.'

._.

Swarna's computer screen.

Mine.

.....................................................
Try it and see if it works.
It seems to work for Swarna, Raga and Terry only so far.
=/


Song of the Day:

"Little Miss Obsessive - Ashlee Simpson"

Stuck in my head. -.-

At long last.

Not that it lasted very long.
7 and a half weeks, to be exact.

I'm clanless once again. =/

Should have done it a long time ago.
That will be the last time I lose my temper in front of my clanmates.
They don't deserve to put up with my bad behaviour.

Do I regret the decision?
I probably will, as they heavy feeling that abruptedly descended upon me as I clicked 'leave group' tells me.

But I think staying would have made me regret it more.
I keep getting other people in trouble unintentionally and I'm going to have to start taking responsibility for my own actions and mood swings.

...
I couldn't find the freaking button to leave clan at first, took me almost 10 minutes -.-

Well.
That's the last time zeo has to ever yell at me again.
And the last time nic has to come and comfort me and get yelled at again.
I'm never playing a clan game again.

>______________________>

I'm sorry Arief, you tried.
Hm. If he even notices I'm gone. Lol.


Song of the Day:

"Don't Stop Me Now - Queen"

...are the only words Ling actually saw. xD

Happy Valentine's Day!

Was what I told my friends.

Only to be replied with a moody:

"Sad. Sad Valentine's Day."
"...why la?"
"What do you think?"
"How would I know?"
"Because, because I have no boy/girl laa..."

And I was so happy-jumpy-cheerful this morning too.
T_T

After hearing Cat emo about her boylessness for the hundredth time, I bought her a Valentine's heart for a dollar, had Ying Qi and Swarna sign it and stuck it up on the board.

Her =(
turned into =/
then into =|

-.-'' I tried.
Damn emo lar these people.
Not to mention KC's constant whining at midnight.

x.x Stephhhhhhhh howwwwwww???

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaat?

I have no valentine T_T

-.- And I thought you had girls queuing up for you summore

T_T Nuuuuu

First time without valentine meh?

Well...since kindergarten.

= ='' Standard jatuh...

T_T

But I didn't worry much about him. -.-
I was sure he'd be perfectly fine.
Sure enough, he just messaged me, telling me he got two roses from some admirers he didn't even know. Lol. If they knew how soft and kiddie he really is......XD Habis!

Sigh.

After that I went back to class and opened the bag of m&ms to try and cheer Cat up.
Another chocolate lover wheeeeee~ ^^

I offered Lydia some:

"Wheeee happy Valentine's day!"
"No la. Sad la..."
"x.x"
"You know la..."
"Have some chocolate!"
"Ahaha okay...thank you."

Chocolates make the world go round. ^^''
Only some people were complaining that it wasn't sweet enough. >.>
Fine la, next time I'll eat them all myself. T_T

Today Econ's teacher was absent again.

Sam showed me a card trick. He was trying to switch places of two cards instantaneously, but the card kept getting caught in his middle finger -.-

"See, I show you ah..."
"Okay."

*cards fall to the floor*

"..."
"HAHAHA"
"Lemme try again!"

*card gets stuck in between fingers*

"OMG AHHAHAHAHA WHAT LA YOU!"
"-.- Wait, sometimes it works one!"
"Okay okay...lol"

*cards fly from hand*

"...shittttt"
"WAHAHAHAHA"
"One last time. One last time."

*card FINALLY flips to the back...but remains completely visible*

"HAHA...I mean OMG that's so impressive! Where did the card go? How did you do it? OMG DAMN CHUN! Show me show me show me! WOW!"
"..."

Arinah: "That's right, sarcasm's the way to go girl ^^"

I damn layan right? =x

***

I think my cheerfulness kind of evaporated after that.
Cannot la. So many gloomy people. -.-
*gobbles more chocolate*

Haha, Swarna's damn cute la.
This morning, when I slid in my seat after arriving late to class (again zzz) she slid me a note:

Steph, want a kiss?

...hm? Ha? OH YES!

I was damn happy weh - the first thing I thought about was Hershey's kisses.
^^'' Really.
Chocolate freak.

She was like ish, you're no fun!

Apparently everyone else gave her wtf-are-you-serious expressions. o_O''

Do you want a kiss?
What kind of question is that?
It's a question.
Er, I don't know.
It's a yes or no question! Yes or no? Do you wanna kiss?
...errrrr. Yes?
Nah! Hershey's kiss! Muax! XD
...
=D

Omg. She's so cute la. Cannot tahan. Lol.

Haha, anyway after that I went takei with Sherm and Jon and ... I don't know his name -.-
Made the fastest, stupidest first blood ever. XD I don't even know what happened.
I walked out and died and all I could think was: Ah? Huh?

o_O Lillian! From piano class! I met her today! xD
*cue song: It's a small world*

Walao. I didn't even recognize her at first.
My brain was so dead I didn't even click.
...she looks familiar...hm. Lemme see...

"Eh? You?"

???

*click*

"Ah..."

Wah, she even remembers me complaining about my UPSR workload...I don't even remember talking to her much - she's so quiet during class.
=/ It doesn't help that all I do when I go to class is fool around/emo/stare at the piano.

But it was a nice surprise all the same. ^^

I had a nice time today. =D
Thanks Sherm and Jon. Hahaha.

And yes, I'm still dulan with that bloodseeker. T_T
But a great time, nonetheless. ^^


Song of the Day:

"Ticket to Ride - Beatles"

Yay Beatles. Gonna sleep now. Tak tahan d.

My sis is weird

So Den got a phone call from someone, asking her what he should get for his gf for V-Day.

Eh, eh, I can't blog the convo here ---> she might read it. T.T

But anyway, it's so funny wei, instead of telling your bf what you want, you tell a mutual friend so that he/she can pass along the message.

o_o Damn weird right?
Girls are such enigmas. =/

Anyway, we were talking about presents and surprises in general:

"So then they asked me what is something I would REALLY want..."
"Uh ha?"
"...and I said a bedside table!"
"WHAT? HAHAHAHA! BEDSIDE TABLE OMG!"
"What? I want one ma!"

So lame lar!
And I thought I was bad - asking for chocolate cookies for my birthday.
It's cookies, they're sweet and they show you care blablabla...

A BEDSIDE TABLE?

HAHAHAHA!

Omg.
My sister is so weird.

"Honey, it's our 1st anniversary together as a couple, what do you want? I'll buy you anything you want. =)"

"Really?"

"Yes dear, anything you want."

"Anything I want ah?"

"Yup ^^"

"Okay...I know this is weird but..."

"Anything, honey. Say it and it's yours."

"...could you buy me...um..."

"...143 roses? A giant teddy bear? 100 ringgit worth of Patchi Dark Chocolate Truffles? (yum) Anything baby, the sky's the limit!"

"...a bedside table...?"

"..."

"..."

"..."

"...what? ><"

O_o''
-pokes- You weirrrrrrdo =x

One thing about my sister is that she's so practical sometimes you wanna give her a good poke.
To poke all that sense and sensibility out of her.

For example:

***

Okay! I'm going to take you out to El Cerdo's for your birthday, we can eat 100 dollar pork ribs and drink 300-dollar-per-bottle wine! =D

OMG Are you crazy? Why la pay so much for pork ribs omg, can't we jsut go to tua ee's (my aunt's) house and eat sambal prawns for dinner?

But...I wanted to take you somewhere nice ma...

Aiyo, save the money and buy me a present la! Haiyoyo...

Okay, I'll buy you new clothes for your birthday then!

Walao, why would I need new clothes? See? I have Levi's jeans and this 10-dollar T-shirt. You know why I buy them? Because they last forever - so I can save money on new clothes la!

...okay. I'll buy you a soft toy.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? I don't need a soft toy la goodness! I have Spot (her doggie) enough la - why on earth would people want so many soft toys for? They just sit and STARE at you and collect dust and give you asthma attacks!

How about a storybook

Pfft. What are libraries for? Goodness, what do they teach you in school these days?

Okay, okay. What do you want then? = =

Oh, I think some nice comfy pajamas would do nicely. This faithful set of mine has lasted 10 whole years, I hope they don't mind me replacing them...but when you need a new set of PJs, you need a new set of PJs. They ARE getting rather clingy around the waist...and I think they were SUPPOSED to be full-length pants...I can't really remember...

...

Also, I wouldn't mind some body lotion too. It gets rather dry in Melbourne, and you will ALWAYS need lotion no matter what, so I think it's a rather good investment, don't you think?

...

Don't you think?

...right. Can I get you something else too? As a present - not a necessity?

Really? You would do that for me? I feel so bad though, you having to buy frivolous gifts for me...

Can, can.

OMG you're AWESOME! Could you, like, get me a new bedside table? Thank you so so much! ^^

***

Okay, she's going to wake up and read this post any time soon, I'd better make myself scarce, mwahahahahaha!

If we were the 3 little pigs, she'd be practical pig.

I build a house of bricks! I build a house of bricks! Now the wolf can't get in, how practical am I! =D

What about me, you ask?

.
.
.
.

WTF PIGS DON'T LIVE IN HOUSES YOU STUPID. = =''

Song of the Day:

"Readymade - RHCP"

Lalala~ I'm putting off my maths homework. ^^''
But no DotA until I finish it! T.T -flops and sniffles-

Post as promised ^^

What I really feel like doing is write an emo post, but that would further cement Fishie's new image of me as a sissy, more matured girly girl.

So if that's going to happen ANYWAY, I might as well do it in a nice way that puts a smile on your face.
And not make you barf and go: = = wtf why is she so moody again?!

So...

***

Everyone, say hello...

...to an old friend

This is Mikey Junior. He is my 6-foot-long snake my parents bought for me from Ikea.

He came to live with me after almost 10 years of craving that pretty green Ikea snake. However, my mom refused to buy it for me because she hates snakes and think they are horrible sneaky and scary.

But after many many years of puppy-dog-eyes and 'mo-om it's just a TOY' my parents finally gave in and we went to Ikea to get my snake...to find out that they revamped the iconic Green Ikea Snake and Tie-Dyed it!

End of story.

***

Say hello...

...to my new acquaintences


After going through ridiculous names like Avocado, Cucumber, Spinach, Guacamole, Parsley - anything that's green, basically - and decided we couldn't come up with anything NOT related to vegetables (yuck) I decided to call her Cera. ^^

Spike, Ducky, Littefoot and Cera!
Okay, she's the wrong colour but whatever. =/

AIG bear (the one with clothes - the other on is indecent ^^") Mason the NYC bear, and PLUTO from Disneyland!

Damn cute right right right? =D My favourite Disney character (as of now, subject to change =/)

Luau the cute piggie. =x She's looking for Mikey, but because pig's can't really turn the head around - due to the lack of neck - she fails.

And this little fella here is Sherman the Turtle!
HAHA! Kawaii ne?
No further comments.

***

Say hello...

...to Denise's baby, and guest star on my blog

This is Nugget.
Nugget is Cera's brother. Both of them were born in a factory in goodness-knows-where and shipped off to the Museum of Natural History in Western NYC with hundreds of siblings to be displayed on shelves until someone kindly decided to take one of them home.

Lucky break, we took TWO of them home! XD

See? He's so cute.
Nugget and Den are inseperable - they even read chicklit together; pure entertainment for Den, and presumably for Nugget to brush up on his kao lui skills :P

***

And say hello...

...to my newest prized possession


...it has no name. ^.^''
My pretty pretty pretty I love it so much and I'm gonna take pictures of all of you when I see you-phone!

And nah, my nails.
Happy? =/

***

Oh, and I MUST post the Unicorn up, even though I don't have one yet.


So cute right?
Right?
RIGHT?

-silence-

Well, I think it's cute, damn you. =x
I like the medium-sized one, it's just right.
The big one's ugly and the small one's so small the only place you can hug it is under your armpit.
>.>

Anyway, I WILL get one the next time I go to Singapore.
Funny feet unicorn. Mine! =D

***

By the way, it's mommy's birthday! (As of now, 4.43 am, 9th Feb 2008 - I went to DotA and came back to finish the post ^.^")

YAY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMEEEE!

See?
I made a card? =D


Matching blue glass earrings and necklace from US!
Nice?
:P

Taking mommy out for lunch tomorrow, then house party at night!
Come bai nian! XD


Song of the Day:

"I Told You So - Keith Urban"

I'm feeling considerably more cheerful now.
Cheers for avoiding emo posts. =)

Ambidexterity

I've always been envious of ambidextrous people.
Wouldn't it be cool if you were able to use both your hands equally well?

It would be so so cool wei!

Playing the piano...no more dominant hand drowning out the melody of the other hand.

Playing tennis, squash, badminton or whatever...you could screw your opponent's strategy by swapping your racquet from hand to hand.

Beating people up...each hand could punch as hard as the other (I wish) =D

Wouldn't you want to be ambidextrous too?

And THEN I had to go find out last Sunday that I used to possess this awesome, awesome thing called ambidexterity.

But you know, Chinese parents say using the left hand is not 'polite' nor 'nice,' so they 'trained' my out of it. I mean, you know, they probably thought 'hey, at least she can use both her hands naturally, so it's not as cruel as making a left-hander changing her handedness completely right?'

OMG

Nooooooooooooooooo!

My sister was like:

"Why? Whyyyy? I love seeing left-handed people write! So nice!"

*mimics lefties hand gesture*

And I had nothing to say.
Something I've had always wanted...to think I actually HAD it at one point in my life.
ARGH man!

But this would also explain a few things:

- My left hand is dominant while playing the piano, which means the beat drowns out the melody most of the time. ^^" I have to pay extra attention to play louder with the right hand.

- When eating finger food, I use my left hand most of the time.

- Ditto with picking up drinks.

- I can only snap my fingers with my left hand. = =

- When paying for items in cash, I hand the cash over with my left hand. Rude I know, but it happens when I'm not paying attention. ><

It would also explain why, when I hurt my hand one week before SPM trials and had to learn to write using my left hand, my handwriting turned out nicer than Ling's normal handwriting.

Lol. But maybe her handwriting is just plain illegible. xD
I kid, I kid. =x

But I DID finish my entire maths paper with my non-dominant hand and teacher never passed a single remark about my handwriting. Heehee.

Oh! Oh!
And this also explains the left side of my body is slightly bigger compared to the right.

Normally, when the sides of a person's body are imbalanced, the dominant side is bigger than the non-dominant one.

That is, if you're right-handed, your right hand may be a wee bit bigger than your left.
Or your foot. Or finger. Or toes.

It happens, no idea why. I'm no scientist. =/

But see!
If I press my left and right arms together and lean my elbows on a flat surface - my left arm is almost a whole INCH longer than the right.
Haha! Freak! XD

Same goes for my legs too. -.-

As most of us know, handedness is related to the side of our brain that is dominant.

The right brain is the creative side, and the left is the analytical side.

If you're right handed, your left brain is dominant.
And vice versa.
This is because the nerves crossover somewhere in the spinal cord.

So, this would mean my creative side was SUPPOSED to be dominant, but was suppressed by my parents - 'use your right side, right!'

So I ended up being a right-hander/left brainer.
Which would explain why I love maths and snooze my way through class.

..But I can still draw! Not as well as some people, I know, but still better than the majority. (Heheh, getting full of myself here xD)

Eh wait, I'm supposed to be both-sided, so I should have both qualities!
Wooooot jackpot! Hahahahaha!

But then, see, I'm not especially good in anything - jack of all trades but master of none.
Truthfully, I'm more versatile, but I don't and can't specialise in anything.

Would I rather be like Ling?
Taking pretty, pretty photographs and doing graffiti/stencil art during class in her spare time?

Would I rather be like Abby?
Who also finds maths and add maths a breeze and thinks Chemistry is fun.

Or would I be able to handle both but unable to excel in either?
That means no fancy Art/Photography Awards nor Best Biology Student certificates for me. =(

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Oh screw it all!
I'll just keep taking home linguistic prizes. Woots!
Best English student ftw! XD

99th percentile in Malaysia weh, don't play play ah!

(Or, being in Malaysia, is that such a great acheivement after all? = ='')

This would also explain why my two main interests are torn between psychology - a science, and digital art - a fine art.

And maybe that's why I'm doing humanitarian art instead (accounts, econs, bleargh = =)

...So I don't have to choose between either! ^^''
It's upsetting really, I feel so lost.
Still don't know where to go. Sigh.


Song of the Day:

"Wonderwall - Oasis"

=)

There has yet to be an English teacher who doesn't love me. *smug grin*
Including Puan Sarjit, unfortunately.
Heard you're having her teaching you EST now JL, I extend my condolences. =x

Oh psh

I admit it, I'm a sucker for soft toys. x.x

I love the cute cuddly little things.
I know many people who think they know me pretty well, then they step into my bedroom...

...THIS IS YOUR ROOM MEH? DON'T LIE!

Ahahahahaha.

Picture this:

Scowling, mood-swingy, tall, skinny, scary anorexic-looking girl whose cupboard is dominantly black and white and is known for her very poisonous tongue.

Then picture this:

A pink room with wooden shelves lined with books from top to bottom, double stacked, a dressing table with a huge mirror and little flowery jewellery boxes (presents from people) and a four-poster-bed with sheer curtains. Furthermore, there are UNICORNS on the curtains, and there is a purple/blue sheer curtain above the main curtain. There is a poster of puppies clipped onto the easel board, and a 2008 calendar hanging on the wall next to the bathroom door - filled with sleeping puppies.

Then, imagine the frame of the four-poster bed.
Wooden, solid...and lined with beanie babies as well as other soft toys from end to end.

Be it dogs, cats, snakes, rats, ghosts - any common creatures... (like ghosts =x) I should have at least one of them up there.

When I was an eight-year-old who happened to be visiting her aunt in Shanghai on her birthday, I was asked:

"What would you like for your birthday?"
"Ummm. Beanie babies! =D"

My aunt bought me 20 of them.
As most of you know, (and the last time I checked,) Beanie babies cost about 20 bucks per toy in Malaysia.

My 8th birthday present would then amount to approximately 400 ringgit.
For soft toys filled with beans.

That is, if I bought them in Malaysia.

But no, I bought them in Shanghai where they cost roughly 4-5 bucks each. =P
So, 100 ringgit worth of toys for my 8th birthday.

What little girl wouldn't be delighted?

I certainly was. =) I think there's still a video of my 'party' somewhere...the whole table was covered in toys. Owls, seals, giraffes, frogs...

My first beanie baby was a panther.
I think my cousin Elaine bought it for me.
My second beanie baby was a green frog, named Legs.

I remember waking up and finding the frog at my feet.
I think that was from Den.

But my memory's screwed - please correct me if I'm wrong. ^.^''

After that came the 20 babies on my 8th birthday.
Then a few more came, here and there, and when I bought my four-poster-bed, I put them all around the frame so they were staring out around my bed.

When visitors came and I had to give up my bed, I turned them inwards so the person would be totally creeped out by 30 pairs or so of beady black eyes staring at him/her. =x

Heehee.

Anyway, this fascination with soft toys faded as I grew older.
I became more into CDs and clothes and necklaces and things preteens collect.

"Toys are for babies!"

Anyway, 20 bucks a pop for a little toy was way above what I would pay.
And so I never bought another beanie since then.

But recently, my love for soft toys reignited - I went to US and brought back no less than 4 toys.
For myself!

x.x

One is a white bear that cost 5 dollars from Carter's (a baby store = =) - it's slightly over a foot tall and looks like a boy bear, but I call him Carrie. No idea why.

Another is a green Triceratops plushie I got from the Museum of Natural History.
Being very unoriginal, I names it Cera after the dinosaur in the Land Before Time. I adored that show. Cera was my favourite. ^^'' So stubborn, and refuses to admit she's wrong even though it's OBVIOUS that she is...sounds familiar? ><

Yet another is Pluto!
Mommy bought him for me from Disneyland, Anaheim. =)
So cute larrr, how can I come home from Disneyland without a toy huh?

The last one is a red, white and blue bear with a top hat with stars and stripes from New York.
On new year's eve. His name is Mason.

^^''

Then today, while I was still in Singapore, I walked into a store hunting for that gorgeous white + purplink unicorn plushie I've been wanting since last year.

I couldn't find it (T.T) but I walked out with a brand-new green turtle toy.
Lol. = =

It was so cute I couldn't resist!

I went back to my relative's place where we were staying and happily showed her my newest toy.

"Oh you like toys? I have a lot of them, come lemme get you some..."
"...!!!"

She brought me pair of pigs on keychains, 2 AIG souvenir bears (one with a matching T-shirt and the other, well, naked) and a Beanie Baby piglet!

OMG.
I love Beanie babies!
It's so so so cute!
It's called Luau and it's all pink and fat and stuff. =X

My aunt wanted to give me this HUGE Pooh bear - I swear, it's as tall as I am when I'm sitting on the floor.

She told me that Joe bought it for my cousin when he was trying to kao her.

^^'' I er, I don't think I want a toy that was meant to be a present from him to his then girl-he-was-after-and-now-wife. Even if it WAS really cute and she didn't want it anymore. So I politely refused. Dahlah I have Den's Piggie and Ikea Heart. = =''

I like them, but it's kinda, er, awkward.
Taking a bf-to-gf gift that is not wanted anymore. = =''
Ish.

Anyway, I wonder where I'm gonna put my new toys.
My bedframe's full.

And Mikey Jr the snake, Matt the bear, and Cera the triceratops are my current bed-buddies.
I think Mikey's not gonna be very happy with so many new comers. =x
He'll eat them all! Mwahahaha. (He's a 6-foot-long rainbow-coloured snake from Ikea, btw)

So, as you can see, I'm a sucker for toys and I guess that answered the question I posed in the last post.

Toys over flowers any day, even though I love those Grade A roses and round Chrysanthemums like crazy. And carnations. But they smell bad. =x

I took me a while to ponder whether toys are better than chocolates, but I've decided that toys are longer lasting and huggable. ^^

Chocolates...love them to death but I've sadly overstocked them - people keep giving them to me and I still buy them. ^^''

Bwahahaha, I love soft toys the most. =P

Now all that's left on my wishlist are the white-and-purplink big-footed unicorn, Patrick (lol after 8 years = =) and that black poodle from Russ.

...now that I think of it, why la didn't I ask Brandon to buy it for my birthday last year?
I still remember Sash going:

"WHAT? YOU ASKED FOR COOKIES? WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU?"
"...chocolate chip cookies."
"WHATEVER! He said he'll buy you anything you want and you ask for COOKIES?"
"Um. Yeah."
"...I give up."
"^^"

Okay. Maybe I exaggerated a little. =/
But her tone was incredulous if not loud.
Like wtf is WRONG with me??

But, but...I love chocolates.
= =''
Cannot meh?
And I had a Famous Amos craving just then.
Zzz. What to do?

Nevermind.
This year, I will not forget.
Eh wait, I think I feel like throwing a party.
...
Nevermind. Next year then. = =''

JL's fault larrrr...who asked her to bring Patrick to our sleepover and make me fall in love with him? =(

Luff me! =3

Song of the Day:

"Sweet Home Alabama - I forgot by whom ^^"

Some things are worth waiting for. XD
Rightttt...

Hello from Lion City

Nothing exciting - I've been here a few dozen times and then some.

Twice a month at the peak of our visits, so I can't say I'm psyched to be here; Yi Ling had her first trip here just last year. xD Nub!

Anyway, I'm not feeling so good; in fact I've been a sharp pain in the arse to most people who conversed to me all day yesterday. I'm sorry about that. =/

Killer headache AGAIN - and they say physical pain is directly related to mental pain, and vice versa. Not that the headache should be blamed completely for my behaviour, though it certainly contributed.

I just don't like being here anymore.

I used to like coming to Singapore, but now I just feel this awful bitter feeling every time I'm here.

Anyway, excuse my emo-ing - I don't do it that often but when I do it is not pleasant at all. =/

Oh well, talking to Ling and Fish last night cheered me up a bit.

Or rather, listening to them talk, hehe. I drove them nuts with my 'hm's, 'ah's, and 'lol's.

Sowie. ^^

Anyway I bought this fat-ass book of politically-incorrect jokes, so that's bound to cheer me up. Laughter therapy has been proven to work, so don't say I'm seeking treatment for my moodiness. :P

MOVING ON.

Today I bought a dress for the first time!

It's deep purple, full length and bias-cut.

Woots.

It's so, so pretty and it's for my cousin's wedding in May - my aunt and mom were poking fun at me:

"I don't think even the BRIDE has bought her gown yet - you're so fast!"

"Yalah she very ai sui one you dunno ah?"

= =''

And my sis says that now I MUST go to prom, no excuses; now I have such a pretty dress.

Yeshhhhh, I was all gung-ho to go to last year's prom with my friends until my US trip clashed with the set date - but now I don't think going to prom will be as fun. I don't know if I'm gonna grow close to any of my classmates this year to be comfortable enough to go dateless. ^^''

Sui-sui, come teman me kay?

I know I dumped you last year...lemme make it up to you! xD

Eh cannot, sure your new admirer merajuk, mwahahahaha! =P

Whee~

Ahahahaha, anyway today I went to check out the iPhone for Turtle.

The salesguy damn helpful wei.

"Can I help you miss?"

"Yeah, do you know when the iPhone's gonna be launched?"

"Er, sometime this year...I don't know..."

*smile*

"Okay. Do you know how much it will cost?"
"Err...no, not yet."

*smiles more*

"You have no idea at all? An estimate?"

"...no. I don't know yet. The people haven't sent us the specs yet so I have no idea."

*smiles some more* ^^''

"Okay. Thanks."

"Thank you!"

*smile and bow*

= =''

Yes, it was definitely service with a smile, but useless service nonetheless.

Authorised Apple Reseller summore weh. So helpful.

Did I mention I hate salespeople? Most of the time they aren't very helpful - or they aren't very friendly.

This guy friendly la.

But damn useless, lol.

Too bad la, you gotta wait for the phone to come to Msia or get a pirated one and deal with the trouble that comes prepackaged. =/

Moving on~

Today I had yummy Lemonlimebitter at Tony Roma's. =D

But that's nothing new - the Strawberry Daquiri Den ordered was, though.

It wasn't very sweet, and you could taste the alcoholic base, so it was pretty nice.

The texture was nice also, very smooth and slushy. =)

But I still prefer LLB over the daquiri, even though there's only a few drops of alcohol in it.

But it's the taste that counts, not the percentage of alcohol. xD

Less is better for my liver also, right?

Heehee.

***

From my jokebook:

Den's favourite:

What has three balls and flies in outer space?

The Extra-Testicle.

-.- Told you she's weird.

My favourite which no one understands:

What's the difference between a goldfish and a goat?

One mucks around the fountain.

Oh please say you understand. ><

And you need at least one blonde joke:

Why were the blonde's boobs square?

She forgot to take the tissue's out of the box.

More:

A man came home to find his wife in bed with his friend.

"What's going on here?" demanded the husband.

"See," said the wife to her lover, "I told you he was stupid."

How do you confuse an archaelogist?

Give him a tampon and ask him which period is was from.

What do men say when they play hide-and-seek or have sex?

Coming, ready or not!

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Randomness:

Fishy loves me! =D

I'm so loved, hehehe.

Me luffs you too, Fishie. =3

Come prom wimme? =D

Song of the Day:

"Megalomaniac - Incubus"

Den asked me what I'm gonna blog about on Valentine's Day.

I'm outta stuff. Haha.

Girls: What would you prefer to receive on V-Day?

Flowers, chocolates or soft toys?

Don't say love is all you want. Liarrrrrs!

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Guys: What would you prefer to buy on V-Day?

Flowers, chocolates and soft toys?

The cheapest one, durrr. :P

Nah, I'm just playing. xD We all know you're all kind, sensitive and caring creatures.

(Emphasis being on 'creatures')

Nyeh! =P