Annoyed weh

Today I got to college at 9.45 am.

Just in time to miss IT and Accounts.

The coincidence...I woke up today with a killer headache, muttering bad stuff about Accounts and seiii IT. Then the maid comes and tells me that Zuhairi says the car couldn't start.

I didn't think much of it.
But the fact that the car only got fixed by 9 am - 2 hours after the time I normally leave the house - granted me 2 things:

1. I got 1 and a half hours extra sleep.
2. I missed Accounts and IT.

It's little miracles like this that almost make me believe again.
Almost, mind you.
But I'm still thankful. ^^

So anyway, I walked to my IT classroom to wait in the corridor for the class to finish.
Shaun was on his phone outside.
He raised his eyebrows.

"Wow. You're early!"
"Yup. Very."

Then Rishi came out.

"Eh? You're here? Huh?"

Ish. I shouldn't have gone to college at all la, macam ini...
But then, I would have missed a very useful Maths lesson.

It was this very Maths lesson that pissed me off so very very very much.

We learned how to find the slope of a tangent to a curve today.
...
Sui and B might be laughing their asses off.

"It's so easy la! Just do this and this and then you get the answer..."

= =''
But I never DID understand it.
I mean, I could memorize the steps and regurgitate them when needed (except during SPM, when I panicked and left half the paper empty -.-)

As for the concept - I never understood it.
NEVER.
I don't think Sui and B really knew what they were doing either - our teacher just taught us HOW to solve the problem, but never explained WHY the above methods are used.

So basically we just walked blindly into the SPM hall with preprogrammed steps in our heads - ready for nothing except to tackle a paper which we had no clue what it was about.

And today, after half an hour.
I understand.
Perfectly.
And it's so fucking easy I feel like marching up to my SPM Add Maths examiner, snatching back my paper and yelling RESIT!!

Or if that fails, falling down on my bare knees and howling and begging.

Resit! Pretty pretty pretty please with whipped cream and a radioactive looking red cherry on top? T.T Pweaaaaase dun make me babytalk okies? =(

= = Fine, fine.
Getting over the fact that I may have screwed and easy subject - one of the two probable Bs for my SPM...

...I got my new phone today!

Woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooots!

I settled for the Black w910i.
Sexy sexxxxxy thang~

;D

I love it to death!
But for now, I can't peel off the protective screen, cause I'm only getting the proper one tomorrow. So now the screen is all blurry looking (as expected through one layer of cheapo plastic =/)

My first ever phone! ^^
Whee~

Btw, today is Twinkle and Beary's 5th birthday!

And they still look like puppies, don't they?
=3

Okay, okay, you've all probably seen this same pic a hundred times over, plus it's 3 to 4 years old - so, with full permission from Yap (Can I use these pics please Yap? Thanks =P) :

Twinkle

and Beary!

That's Abby's hands in the first pic by the way, in case you were wondering how my hand suddenly shrank/Twinkle's head grew enormous. =x

Oh, and see? Beary likes my purple nail polish! ;D

Happy happy birthday, babies! =3

And before I forget, tomorrow is Sunshine's birthday!
She's finally back from India, where she spends March to December every year in school.

She's 15!
Omg I feel so old!
I was just fifteen!
Last year!
Oh wait, last...last year. =.=
Whatever.


2 years ago...a few days after my birthday when I chose to stay over at her place.

Anyway, look!
I was still having my overbite fixed and she hadn't started treatment for her underbite yet.
Wahahahaha.
Pfft. I look stoned. But I'm not. x.x

All dressed up and smiling. =D
Laksh, Sunshine, me and Sash

***

Ok I abandon this post to go chat.
It's 12 already, so cancel the 'tomorrow' ^^''

Happy birthday Shan! Muaks!

Song of the Day:

"Nice to Know You - Incubus"

Sorry for abrupt end. Wanna tidur.
(See, abrupt ending also I blog what. Yap has no excuse now. =P)

Broken

-down battery.

The car can't start.
That would explain what I'm doing here at 7.25 am on a schoolday.
I'm so, so tired.

Eh wait, the repairman is coming in about half an hour...which means I can have a 30-minute nap.
Woot!

Why didn't I think of that before?
Silly silly silly, my head isn't screwed on straight. -.-

Btw, has anyone seen the video thingie for Step Up 2?
It's sick!

In a good way. =D
I wanna watch it! ><

I think I'll drag the Smiths along.
Brandon asked me to go to watch the first one, I forgot why I didn't go.
Hm. Never mind, my turn to ajak. ^^

EH he still owes me one movie for ffking me last year weh!
Ahahahahahaha, free movie here I come. =P


Song of the Day:

"Does Your Mother Know? - ABBA"

Back to Abba = = At least no more Britney.

Sucker!

I did something really stupid today.

Today, we divided ourselves into groups for our Moral project.
Well, the others divided themselves and I sat there staring into space with my iPod plugged into my ears, figuring that I'll just join any group short of one member later on.

But it turned out that I didn't need to.

Catherine yelled at me.
Well, I think she was, I couldn't hear it - but she was waving and her mouth was open, so yeah.

"Join my group?"
"Sorry?"

I pulled off one side of my earphones.

"My group, MY GROUP!"
"Oh? Ah, sure."

I pulled the other earphone and hopped over to where she was sitting.
Vivienne tapped me on the shoulder.

"Eh, thank me, I remembered you. I wanted you here one ah!"
"Thank you ^^"

Later, they counted our group members - there were 10 of us; there were supposed to be 9 only.
Then, Sheng asked Catherine if she could join their group - they only had 6 people.

It was clear that Cat didn't want to leave our group - we had the people to make the documentary rock. x.x

"Er, nevermind la...6 people enough what..."
"You guys have 10 people la...let us have one la..."
"No need la...why don't you ask they all?"

*gestures to other people*

"..."

He looked so crestfallen that I felt sad for him. = =''
Kena rejected straight in the face.
But I didn't say anything - hey, I like the people I'm working with, alright?

But later he caught me.

"Steph, you wanna join my group?"
"Er. Um. Ok. Lemme ask Vivienne aight?"

I turned around to pack my bag.
He looked at me and nodded at Vivienne, who was standing right next to me.
Shoot.

Sigh.

"Eh, Vivienne, can I join Sheng's group? They damn sad wei, 6 people only."
"-.- Okay, sure. Your choice la."
"Okay la."
"Yor, and me and Arjun asked for you first leh!"
"...what to do."

Oh boo. Now I'm stuck with the super quiet people in class.
T.T

Well, at least they look like the super hardworking type, as opposed to my original group members. (Drinking during class without giving a shit to Mr. Teoh? LOL)
So maybe I won't have to do so much work then. =/

Later, in class, some of my group members - ohmygod I can't remember their names >< smiled at me and talked about the topics on offer. Sheng turned to me and said:

"Thank you ah. For joining our group." ^^''

He looked so freaking grateful I softened.
Maybe it won't be so bad - how can working with a guy with 'Hey Noob' painted on his fingernail be bad? x.x

This is so freaking ridiculous!

Why la did I put my Moral grade on the line because of some sad, sad-looking faces?
I'm getting so soft, it's hard to believe.

In secondary school, I'd probably just snort at them.

"Pfft. No thanks. = ="

Look at me now. Damn lame weiii. x.x

Anyway, I'm gonna make them do 'computer games' as our topic.
I don't care. They neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed me! Mwahaha!
(Pffffffffft, it's only Moral, I don't care! I don't care! T.T)


Song of the Day:

"Someday - Nickelback"

I like this song. =/

SAM Student Council Elections 2008

Who would YOU vote for? =P

I have only one vote, and of course I'm voting for Shaun la.
(He's the only person I know, besides Adeline - Swarna's friend. But class loyalty comes first. ^^)

But if I had more votes, I'd vote for:

Girls
Juhaida
Pic 1, row 1, 5th person
Cause she has a nice smile. =)

Adeline (I'm not sure if that's how you spell it though) Tay
Pic 3, row 1, 5th person
I've met her, she's nice.

Lim Yin Faye
Pic 5, row 4, 4th person
Just cause she looks so damn cheerful - God knows I was in such a bad mood on picture day =/

Boys
Shaun
Pic 5, row 1, 1st person

Anthony
Pic 5, row 1, 2nd person
Eurasians are pretty. ^^

Lim Ter Yi
Pic 5, row 1, 3rd person
Dunno. He just looks friendly, but pictures can be deceving. Lol.

The second last row is a winner wei...4/6 people I chose are from there, haha.

Is it just me or are 90% of the guys unable to smile properly/at all?
The girls are much, much better. :P

Though I shouldn't be talking since I hardly smile like that for cameras anyway.
But I'm smiling in my student ID pic! It was quite a feat considering my horrible jetlag + exhaustion from stepping off a 20-hour-flight not more than 12 hours before the photo was taken.

Ok, so it's more like a smirk and my hair is all over the place.
But I don't look like an alien and that counts ok!

So anyway, who would YOU vote for, based on looks alone? =)
You KNOW looks count, don't deny it. ;o)

(Vote for Shaun! He has really nice hair now! XD Such a pity they put his pic next to such a cute Eurasian boy =/ Tsktsk.)



Song of the Day:

"El Nin-Yo! - Tata Young"

The boys were listening and singing along to this that day, I found it really amusing, but I don't know why.

Bwahahaha

I got caught snoozing in Accounts class today.

I was happily dreaming about DotA and whatnot when I was poked in the side by Swarna.

I lifted my head from the desk.

"Ah...?"

Mr. Madhavan nodded his head in my direction, and my class started laughing.

"Aha...ehehe ^^"

I smiled brightly, hoping he wouldn't be pissed off.

"...and just now I asked you guys whether my class was boring or not!"

>.< Sorry teacher.

Anyway, I got back my first Econs paper today. I'm pretty happy with my 11/13, considering I didn't refer to my notes at all! =D Except for this one question: 'Australia is known as a land of plenty. Why is it that resources there are still considered scarce?'

I got 1.5/3 marks for that.
I lost another 0.5 for giving an irrelevant example of recurrent wants - reading a storybook is a recurrent want! My hunger for books is never really satiated!
But teacher won't accept my answer. =(

Anyway, I asked Swarna for her paper so I can check out the correct answer for the Australia question. .

..full marks wei!

T.T Boo. Suddenly I felt so careless --- see la full marks is completely possible. =(

But anyway, my paper was only 3/4 pages long and hers was 3 pages long. HA!

I remember last year, when I used to write a single sentence answer for Bio and get full marks, B used to complain about how she wrote a super chiong hei, detailed, 5-line long answer and get the same marks as I did.

=x See?

More proof that quality > quantity.

Today Ying Qi appeared rather upset whens he came to school.
She refused to talk, and when asked what was up she just paused, shook her head and said that she couldn't describe it.

Swarna and I nagged and nagged until she finally caved in and talked - we didn't care how screwed up her English was, it didn't matter.

She was asking about friends.

She said that she had known this person for a while now - maybe a year or so.

And suddenly, talking to that person seemed uncomfortable, and she had to think and scramble for words to say when they're together.
I pressed harder - my EQ is rather lacking, so I called Swarna for further consultation - and it turned out to be about a boy.

Sigh.

Aren't they always?

She likes him a lot, and doesn't know if he returned her feelings (man, how many times have I heard this one?) and lately, conversation seemes to get awkward - like they have nothing to say.

Furthermore, it's starting to stress her out - she says she can't fit in anywhere in school, and cannot find someone to bond to.

And some 'friends' appear to treat her nicely only to return the favour.

So I asked her, are these friends worth keeping?
It's basic economics =x

Cost versus Benefit

The benefits of having the person as a friend must always outweigh the cost in maintaining your relationship, otherwise you will never be completely happy.

Of course, I didn't mention this to her.
Somehow I doubt she'd find me comparing her problems to economics amusing.

I told her, if they don't mean that much to you, why invest so much effort in keeping things civil?
If they are not treating you as well as you treat them, why are you still trying to make them like you?

It's just not worth it, is it?

As for bonding - even I have never completely bonded with anyone yet.

She asked me, why haven't I?

I told her, I just haven't.

Then aren't you afraid that there's no one else out there for you?

No...there are 6 billion people in the world, man. I'm sure there's someone out there that I can actually connect to. I'm not worried. I'm not in a particular hurry either.

So you're saying you think that there's someone else for you?

Yeah, sure. One fine day la...

She paused to think.

Class started and our conversation ended.

I was rather worried though. Who the hell am I to give advice like this?

Yet, people seem to ask me these kind of things - do I look like I know these things? = =''
Coming from someone who has never had a true best friend, nor a boyfriend and is basically pretty antisocial, any advice I give should just be taken lightly.

Later she asked, how do I find the people (in my class, she gestured with her hand) ?

I shrugged.

If they talk me then I'll talk to them.

But don't you ever...

...hm?

...no, no, nothing.

Something's still bothering her, I don't know exactly what, but it can't be good.

Later on, she thanked me and Swarna for our advice and said that I'd be a good counsellor next time.

...

Then wtf am I doing in IT? XD
I should be doing Psychology, see?

Btw, I pulled out a Psychology text book from my desk drawer in one of my classes - guess who it belonged to? Jiun Yi. HAHAHA!

What a coincidence, I never DID see him again after our first day in class - and now here I was sitting at his seat without realising it. (And yes, that's how his name is spelt.)

...Some random guy just found me on GGC. Boo. Have to go layan/blow off.
Then maths then DotA! =D

*Update:


Damn, I'm getting better at this! =x

*Post-update update:

HOLY CRAP IT'S HIM AGAIN!
Didn't I block him already?
#$*&^*@#%!!! Save meeeeeeee T.T


He pmed me directly too, but I yelped and closed it reflexively before I could screenie it.
Then he went to the public channel...
...and I went to shower. Heehee. ^^''


Song of the Day:

"Radar - Britney Spears"

Damn you Ling for uploading her album onto my iTunes! Grr.

Innate violence

Today both Sam and Vivienne asked me the same question, seperately:

"...what did you do to your hand? Did you...punch...something?"

"No la, bite."

"o_O'"

"Aiyo, insect la, not me! = ="

"Ah."

=/
My right knuckles are very swollen, it's looks pretty nasty and it's turning a repulsive shade of purple.
No wonder they thought I'd broken a knuckle or something.

I don't even know what happened to it.
It's probable that I punched something in my sleep, but I think a poisonous insect bite is much likelier.

...People actually think that I WOULD bite myself. Lol. Masochistic tendencies, eh?

Anyway, I'm thankful once again, that my class is slow.
Being absent yesterday didn't affect my studies one bit - no one knew what was being taught yesterday so teacher had to explain it all over again today.

Wahaha.

And Sheng who scared me by saying OMG TONS OF HOMEWORK...Swarna told me it's just because people pile their work up a lot, because they were so busy studying for the accounting quiz we had today.

...The accounting quiz I completely forgot about until Sheng reminded me last night. ^^''

So anyway, there's hardly any homework because I've kept mine up-to-date (except IT, I'm screwed) and I didn't particularly find the quiz tough - though it's unlikely I'll impress Mr Madhavan with my eloquent bullshitting that I've been able to get away with this past 5 years.

Oh well.
I intended to study during LAN, but of course, it remained the way it was - good intentions.
Scott was drinking during Moral class.

=/

I know, my class is the most well-behaved class I've seen so far.

There are at least 4 to 5 groups listening/watching their iPod, some fooling around - eating or drinking, chitchatting amongst themselves and the geeks like me finishing their Maths homework so they can go home and DotA/sleep/do whatever it is they do.

Anyhow, Swarna asked me what Scott was drinking.
I turned around in my seat.

"Water?"
"I don't think so..."
"Dunno. I mean it's a liquor bottle, but it looks like water..."
"Erm. No it's alcohol."

Our doubts were laid to rest later when he emerged during Econs with a bright pink face, all relaxed and happy.

He looked exactly how I looked that night after a couple of drinks.
So ok.
Swarna got it right. Hehe.

I love classmates like these, it makes me feel better if I misbehave.
I mean what's cutting a couple of after-school programmes to play pool compared to drinking and singing opera (-.-) loudly during moral class? (Much to Mr Teoh's dismay - I think he's gonna snap soon, give it 4 or 5 more classes with us)

Today, KC did his thing and sat on his phone again - all at the wrong time.
I forgot to silence my phone and the bloody thing started ringing 5 minutes into class.
Luckily my classmates were damn bising and teacher couldn't hear me say a thing, though she saw me pick up my phone.

It's an automatic reaction.
I've told him that I'll never answer ANY of his calls.
Whatever it is, he can message me.

But the moment my phone started ringing, I picked it up - reflex?

"Hello?"

No answer.
Rolling my eyeballs, I hung up and texted him.

I suggest keypad lock =/

A minute later.

Sh.In sch.

Walao!
He CALLS me in class, potentially getting me screwed by teacher, and I text him to lock his keypad and I'm the one who gets reprimanded.
=.=''

Whatever.
He's gotta pay for that call, mwahaha.

Anyway, just in case I forget to silence my phone again, please call/text 10 minutes before the hour.

That's the free time between periods.
Or during my break time, if you know when that is.
Otherwise, wait until I get home can? Thanks.

I can't wait for my new phone!
Now that it's impending, I'm getting excited. =D


Song of the Day:

"15 Step - Radiohead"

I still don't feel like DotA.
Side effect of the flu? I'm not complaining. =/

Padan muka

Got bad rep already la. = =

Last night when I finished the accounts presentation and handed it off to Sheng, you know what he said?

Go rest now ar, thanks ya.
Ok, np.
DON'T DOTA!
...won't la. = =''

Hey, I'm really not feeling good alright?
I still sound fine - online, that is.
Offline?
My voice sounds like an 80-year-old woman who smokes (and is about to croak anytime soon.) -.-
Still got a headache and a bit of light-headedness.

If I were still in secondary, people would automatically assume I skipped school to stay home and DotA/catch up on sleep (lost DotAing.)

...And I wouldn't blame them, cause it would probably be true. =x

But now, I actually find myself annoyed that I couldn't go to college today.
I actually enjoy class, believe it or not. (Except IT, it's boring.)

The epitome of geekiness: Permitted to stay home and do whatever I want, but wants to go to school instead. ^^''

I don't know if it's because the classes are taught competely in English or I find it easy or interesting or whatever, but I like going to school now. =D Or maybe it's because I haven't fallen behind in my work (yet) and I'm not struggling (yet.)

Last year, I had homework backed up a few months, and I didn't particularly care. =/
Teachers would punish me, and heck yeah, I'd let them - it's my fault right?
But I didn't give a damn cause I still understood what was being taught and still scored better than 80% of the students in my class.

Almost all of them, except BB and Sui la. =x
But that's why they're my friends. ^.-

I will be eternally grateful to Abby for cramming 2 years worth of Chemistry in my head within a week (the week right before SPM started, no less.) If I get even a B4 it would be a miracle already (considering my 2 successive failures in a row right before SPM.)

Anyway, as I was saying before I spun off track...just now Chris just asked me:

No school ah?
Didn't go. Rest for one day first.
Rest from what? Your DotA-spree?

= =

I suppose I asked for it.
I haven't exactly been your model student for the past 11 years (I think I was relatively well-behaved in kindergarten =x)

(For the record, I only played 1 less-than-30-minute game yesterday afternoon - 13-0 and scourge all ciao-ed - and I did NOT have a DotA-spree on Tuesday night - much as I wanted to T.T)

It's like the girl who cried wolf.
Now I'm really sick and no one believes me.
It's kind of amusing in a way. ;D

Oh well.
Padan muka, kan? =/


Song of the Day:

"When I'm Gone - Simple Plan"

I didn't know this was by SP! Did you?

Bored

I feel like utter crap - my head is hurting, I lost my voice and my sinuses are misbehaving.
But nevermind about that, padan muka for not getting enough sleep since I got back from US, right?

Haha.

***

I'm really starting to wonder how people can consider another as a good friend.

I went out to lunch that day with a few of my classmates.
Suddenly, one of them brought up this girl's (X) attitude - I'm not going to mention any names - and how she couldn't stand her.

She said that X constantly made her feel stupid, likes attention from boys and loves being in the limelight. Furthermore, everyone else but one girl agreed.

I was surprised.
I found X to be blunt, yes and has a refreshing lack of tact.

"OMG damn lame la you!"

But it never did hurt my feelings.
=/
That's just the way she is, she doesn't talk behind your back - if she doesn't like you, she says so.
If she finds something wrong with you, she doesn't hold it back.

Given, this may be extremely annoying and can hurt people's feelings more often than not.
But the girl, Y, who brought up this topic still appeared to be friends with X.

This question was posed:

"If you don't like X so much, let me ask you, why are you still friends with her?"

Y was momentarily speechless.

"Because, we're going to spend 9, no, 11 months with her - I don't want..."

"But why are you still friends with her if you don't like her? I mean, I don't care if it's 11 months or 11 years - if you're that kind of person, I don't need to be your friend."

"..."

So let me ask this one question:

Who is worse?

X - who doesn't hide behind false niceties and speaks her mind, albeit in an extremely straightforward way - screw what people think, she told me.

Y - dislikes X, but still pretends to be her friend for her own sake - she's too afraid of a confrontation.

I'm not saying that either person is morally bad in any way.

But, I feel that Y should just distance herself from X and refrain from talking behind her back.

This talk went on:

X is such an attention-seeker, she always with the boys!

"See la! Those two new guys came in already she goes and talks to them...blablabla..."
"Why can't she talk to them? They all play DotA and that's plenty to talk about. I mean I just DotAed with all of them and I don't see anything wrong."
"Well...she was like..."

She had no points to make.
And this reminds me why I preferred boys to girls when I was younger.
Girls can be so bitchy.

I'd like to say I understand how they feel - how X's words have hurt their feelings and offended them. But I too, have been on the receiving end of those barbed remarks and I just find it amusing.

"You damn skinny la! Look at you man!"
"Yea, I know. Looks like a freaking scarecrow right?"
"Hahaha you at home no food one meh?"
"Got la, cannot get fat only la."
"Eat more la!"
"Yala yala, I will, lol."

That was the end of the story.
I don't particularly find it fun when people point out my lack of flesh in public, but hey, it's true - why get offended if she's just pointing out the facts?

Another scenario:

"OMG what were you thinking? Damn lame la you! Right? Right?"
"......"

Y just let herself be burned. =/
I know, it sounds really harsh - 'Damn lame la you!'

Y was speechless, she just looked hurt.
I shrugged, I got that remark too before, but:

"Yea, and I so asked him to come takei with us tomorrow..."
"WHAT? You asked a guy out? OMG DAMN LAME LA YOU!"
"Hahahaha, whaaaaaaaat? Cannot meh? =/"
"Can. Lol."

You just have to learn how to take it the right way.

Some people don't hurt you intentionally - they're just so used to speaking out bluntly like that and they expect you to just shrug it off.

What I really cannot tolerate is talking behind people's backs.

Discussing a person's shortcomings under the covers.
...And I thought these people were her friends.

Another person, Z:

"And the way she talks also, I fell under her spell that day!"

"Hm?"

"Remember when we went to complain about our ESL teacher? At that moment I really felt, ooh, I want to complain about her, I need her replaced!"

"Yea?"

"Then after that, I could see that X was just working us all up - now I see that our teacher wasn't really as bad as we thought. She...like, hypnotised us that day."

"I don't know. I still don't like our teacher."

"And then some more she said that people don't back her up otherwise, only when she's there we dare to complain."

"It's true."

"But we were all fooled by X la, I see our teacher is not really at fault now - that's why I spoke in class just now - 'it's also our fault, teacher,' right?"

"..."

X was absent that day.
During discussions with our class mentor, she complained that no one wanted to back her up after the initial complaint. When she was in front leading the pack everyone was like, 'yeah yeah she sucks!'

Then when we wanted to go and complain directly to the programme director, everyone chickened out - 'she's ok what...she's not that bad la...no need to complain la...'

THEN later, during the intervention by Mr. Madhavan where he made us discuss the whole incident - 'yes, Mr. Madhavan! She is so and so, she makes us feel really bad blablabla...I don't like her...'

So of course, X was really annoyed and spoke up:

"I'm really disappointed in our class. When we wanted to go and complain they were all scared and kept saying she's alright, and like now, they're complaining behind her back instead."

I silently agreed - I had the same experience: being ffk-ed by classmates when lodging an official complaint.

One second they're there backing you up.
The moment authority steps in: "She talked me into it!"

WTF man.

So,
I walked back to campus after lunch that day with a bad taste in my mouth.

I thought I'd escaped 5 years of oestrogen-filled bitchiness when I left CBN, but it appears to be even worse here.

...

Well, I guess in a way, I'm talking behind their backs also.
Don't get me wrong, they're my classmates and I think they're really nice people, except for this one incident - bashing someone else in private? Blaming their own lack of will and judgment on someone else's 'smooth talking?'

...

And you ask why I don't attach myself to people easily.
Look how fickle-minded and hypocritical people are.

I don't deny I've probably said stuff behind people's back before - but never with malicious intent.

That, you can be sure of.

But hey, everyone's human right?
Some shortcomings just cannot be avoided.


Song of the Day:

"Let Me Go - 3 Doors Down"

I feel gloomy.

Cheerfulness

Is not what I'm feeling right now. ^^''

I woke up with the biggest, fattest, badass headache on earth.
Okay, exaggerating a bit but it still isn't very pleasant.

I finally remembered that I can stream KROQ from my iTunes, so I'm quite happy.
Mom says that she'll ask her friend to ask her nephew about the W910i and W890i, and whether he can get it at cost price for me.

So no new handphone yet. =x
Nevermind. I've waited so long, a couple more weeks won't kill me.
I just hope my alarm goes off on time everyday until I get a new phone.

I'm not sure if my phone is spoilt, or there's something wrong with my head.
Either one is cause for concern.

Yesterday morning, my hp alarm rang.
I switched it off and sat up.

Suddenly,

Beepbeepbeep.
Beepbeepbeep.
BEEPBEEPBEEP.

Wtf, it was ringing again?

Only it was more like a phantom sound.
More quiet and subdued, but nevertheless there.

I paused and shook my head, thinking I was hearing things.
I picked up the phone, it was all dark, and still.

Yet, the ringing tone went on.

= =''

Perturbed, I press the key sequence to switch off the alarm, and the sound stopped immediately.

The last time I was hearing things was when Den's friends and I DotAed at night.

Somehow, I kept hearing her message tone go off: time to play!

-.- But that time, if I paused to consider it, I could tell whether it was real - or whether I was hearing things. Den found it amusing too.

Anyway, I tried to put the incident out of my mind.

Then I went into the toilet, carrying my phone with me.

...The ringing started again.

It sounded so real, I'm telling you!
I could've sworn it wasn't me imagining things - except when I picked up my phone - it was completely still.

Beepbeepbeep.
BEEPBEEPBEEP.

The sound was escalating, but still a bit muffled.

I shut my eyes and told myself I was imagining it.
Stop being ridiculous! It is NOT ringing!

The ringing stopped.

...

WTF!
I'm going crazy.

I think I'll blame it on my less-than-ideal state of health.
-.-

I remember hearing voices whispering in my head, if I concentrated hard enough.
It's probably just my imagination working overtime, but I could really hear them.
Hahaha, don't I sound like a schoziphrenic/attention-seeker? -.-''

But it really is happening, believe it or not.

At least I'm no longer terrified when it happens.
I used to be really freaked out when I heard voices, believing that my room was haunted.
Then I'd flee to my parent's room to sleep.

When I got older, I just paused and listen to it.
Then I realised it was just me - no one else could hear it.
=/

Yerr, sounds damn creepy la.

On a brighter note, mom finally got me a thumb drive. ^^''
It's red and gold and has a rat on one side.
Now Ms. Sue can't reprimand me for not having a thumb drive - what kind of IT student am I? Haha.

Okay, my head is feeling bad again.
Gotta go.
Do homework.
= =

Oh, and by the way, Rachel is a boy. =/
Poor Max.


Song of the Day:

"Map of the Problematique - Muse"

I love this song very much. =)
Why don't they play it here? Msia sucks. :P KROQ rocks.

Aww.

"Stephanie!"
"...?"
"Stephanie~ Stephanie, you are not laughing...are you awake? Hello?"
"Mmmmmm...no I'm not..."
"She's sleepy la teacher, aiyo!"
"DotA! DotA!"
"...ah...haha...mmm..."

My eyelids flutter shut again.

I slept around 2 am last night.
I was utterly exhausted this morning.
I didn't speak to anyone, unless they said hello, and even so, it was a pretty bland response.
=/

The reason I was up so late doing my homework at the last possible moment was because I was out the whole day on Saturday, and forced to go out to dinner on Sunday night.

That's not to say I would have done my homework any earlier, though. :P

So anyway, the main murderer was Accounts.
The questions required bloody long answers and some of them were repetitive.
I spent about an hour (sorry la, my motor functions were shutting down already) doing 70% of the questions and then resigned myself to receiving a scolding from Mr. Madhavan tomorrow.

...

Only,
Mr. Madhavan was absent today.

...

AIYO!

Suay or not you tell me?
Don't wanna do homework already la!

-pout-

All that effort for nothing.
And I didn't even get to DotA a single complete game yesterday.
Sigh.

Nevermind.
Tonight's DotA night! =D

Now I'm gonna take a 3-hour nap and attempt to recover some brain cells that went comatose from this terrible lack of sleep. I screwed up a simple maths question on the whiteboard today - that says a lot. C'mon! I own maths! What crap is this? Hahahaha.

Today I got disapproving glares from every teacher.
I feel like I'm back in Form 5 again!
Whee.


Song of the Day:

"Cave - Muse"

Good day.

Yes, Yi Ling, I found it! =x

My 6-day-long log of my first trip to the US.
Haha, pen and paper really tired me out quickly. Tech-spoiled yuppies. =x
Also, I didn't really have much time to write - in fact I wrote the first three days' log on the third day only. :P

But I was online very often for the second half of the trip so you all should already know roughly what went down firsthand. ^^

Here it is, word for word.
I'd scan it, but I think only I can read my writing. (And the stupid scanner's spoiled, too, boo.)

Italics are current notes.

==========================================================================

This is the first time I've opened my pencil box since SPM. =)

Day 1 of US trip: 12th Dec, Wed 2007

Left for airport at 6.45 am.
I slept at 4.30 the night (day) before (?) because I was playing my final game of DotA with KC, Sam and Sherman. (Played w/Arief, Max + rest of MoDs in the afternoon.) We act. finished at 3 am but KC talked so much and I didn't really want to sleep either cause I'm not gonna see gim for almost a month -_-''

But anyway, after a horrible game w/a feeding TA (that was me! =x) and 1hr of talking crap, I managed 2 hrs of sleep before the 3hr+ flight to HK. Was feeling nauseous throughout the day. Den was held up @ HK customs for bringing in Firearm --> pepper spray. Swt. "teargas"

Customs officer ~ super sarcastic and talked with this farnee cheena accent. So anyway, Den now has a police record in HK. Fuyoh! My jie2 (written in chinese) damn cool wei! =D Later, before the flight to SF from HK, I got body searched before they allowed me to board the plane. Only me wei!

It was super funny cause she was using this metal detector thingy and it kept pinging cause my clothes were covered in zippers! Maybe that's why they thought I looked like a terrorist? --> Black jacket + pants covered in metal. Lol. Then she patted my pockets --> "li mian de dong xi na chu lai." (Remove the things inside, in chinese) So I took out the contents of my pocket... ...A melted bar of Cadbury chocolate. HAHA! Maybe she thought it was TNT (like cartoon network dynamite stick or something.) ><" doh!

Well anyway, after that was the dreaded 11.5 hour flight. D8!!! (the emoticon was upright when I wrote it, I can't reproduce it with the keyboard, haha) Siao man! I couldn't eat nor sleep properly - it was so uncomfortable. I'm so tall that the neckrest was supporting my shoulderblades instead. (Makes me wonder how the giant ang mohs fare...) -_-'' Got neck + spine ache 'cause of that. I gave up on watching Hairspray cause was damn chiong hei + boring + predictable + has overrated Zac Efron in it. =/ Bias! And I'm still clueless as to why John Travolta was cast as the mother. Was the mother THAT bad until they to have a marketing gimmick as such (crossdressing EX-A-lister?)

Anyway, after a long, torturous flight, we arrived at SFIA (San Francisco International Airport) at 12.30 noon the same day. 16 hrs backward, lol.

Elaine ci2 was there to meet us and Jason ko2 too. She (Elaine) bought us SO much food! ^.^ Nice nice cousin. I was supposed to stay at her place for the 1st night instead of Days' Inn but I ko'd the moment I hit the bed at the Inn. So Den got to stay at Elaine's place instead. =( Which may be a good thing, cause I woke up with horrible diarrhea at 3.30 am. T.T It was horrible. I was up til' 4.30 and I felt like my intestines had been sucked dry. This went on throughout the next day too.

==========================================================================

No pictures on the first day - it was mostly flights and nausea and other horrible things.
Ok, Ling, happy? = =
I know it doesn't say much about US, but when you're there, you don't think about describing what's happening to you right then to a bloody notebook. Haha.

I'll save the other remaining 4 and half days for a really uneventful blogging day.

Until then, wait. ^^''


Song of the Day:

"Blood - MCR"

I gave you gallons of the stuff. =x

Den sucks

At brushing her teeth!
Hehehe.

Finally! Something I'm better at than she is.
The dentist said:

"She had a very thorough brush this morning I see."

LOL.
See? Dentists KNOW if you're behaving ot not. You can't just ignore your flossing for 6 months, then give it a good brush right before your appointment. You can't fool them! They're superhuman! They can see plaque from 5 metres away, smell bad breath from the next room and sense guilt a mile away!

Don't play play! :P

She said I'd been a good girl. ^^
No work done on my teeth, except from some polishing.
She must have been so relieved, given all the hell I caused her the past lordknowshowmany years. Plaque, cavities, gingivitis (not my fault.) You name it, I've probably had it. =/

(I swear! The gingivitis was an infection from dirty dental instruments! I got it the day AFTER my appointment = = How could she not have detected it then? Therefore I attribute the unfortunate condition to the lack of hygiene of the clinic.)

Anyway, after that we went to mom's carnival.
I was alone. =x
I didn't really mind, cause it was somewhat expected. I asked 4 people in person - one was drowning in homework, one had tuition, one got grounded, and one was Yi Ling (no further explanation necessary.)

Ling, you have a damn bad rep la. =/
You said you were going to fix it - btw, I think you still owe me money. = =''

Of all the games, I only tried 2.
One was a horseshoe throw, which I totally sucked at.
I don't think I have any sense of aiming...

But I owned the other one, ha!

It was called Fishing.

They gave you a tiny fishing rod with cord attached to it, and a ring at the end of the cord (like bait.)

Then they place an empty 1 litre bottle on the table, and you have to make the bottle stand (and stay) upright.

One game was 1 minute each, I bought three games and finished them in under a minute.
HAHAHA!

The lady running the stall was like o_o''
Pfft. Everyone else sucked. :P

Their bottles were just spinning round and round on the ring and most fell of the table. = =
I got my first 2 up in well, the first 2 attempts. =x

Only me and this old old old lady could do it.
The adults damn paiseh leh!
Owned by a teenager and an old lady. Wahahahaha.

Later, I went back and won another 2/3 games.
Stupid little boy was rocking the table while I was playing. = =
Made my bottle fall after it stood up, dammit.

The crowd was mainly ill-behaved.
I got so annoyed by the middle of the day, I felt like hitting someone. Lol. I didn't la.
I can control myself now. Most of the time. =)

Well.
All the kids who pissed me off went home in one piece.
Enough said.

People KEPT STEPPING ON MY SLIPPER.
Arghhhh.
And they KNOW it, and they refuse to apologise. Uncivilised beings.
Who can't control their kids either.
Freaking queue cutters.
Just because you're a kid doesn't mean you rule the world.
And just because you're and adult doesn't mean you can walk around stepping on my slippers until they fall off, look over your shoulder and walk off saying nothing.

In fact, one lady did just that.

After getting stepped on for the 2986432575th time, I snarled.

WATCH IT, LADY.

She looked back again, winced and walked away hurriedly.
Ass.

Apologize la, very hard is it?
-.-''

You don't even have to be sincere, just say it so that I know you acknowledged your clumsiness.
Grr.

But then, I was not in a good mood - super-sleepy + hungry + hot.
Excuse me ya? ^^''

By the way, why do I seem to be attracting weirdos lately? = =

At the end of the carnival, I wanted to finish off my coupons so I went to a stall to exchange them for stuff.

"Can I redeem stuff with my coupons here?"
"Yes! Sure sure! What do you want?"
"Dunno."
"What do you have in mind?"
"What do you have?"
"Anything you want...You can ask Michael here to kiss you, also can~"

The two guys started laughing.
So syok sendiri.

"..."

My infamous not-so-cute-face appeared.

The 20+ year old guy and Michael the 40+ year old man ceased smiling.
Immediately.
I intensified my glare.

"...oh, er, um, that one cannot la, heh heh."

Michael looked at the other guy nervously.

I narrowed my eyes and spoke.

"What do you have for 5-year-olds? My niece and nephew."
"Oh, oh er yes! 5-year-olds ah...here take this, and this......this also..."
"Anything for girls?"
"Girls ah...oh here, here, take this! For girls, eheheh..."
"Can I take one more?"

He hesistated.
I stared at him.

"...sure. Take it. Take it."

He handed me some more stuff, and satisfied that the sheer quantity of items he gave me had made up for their plain idiocy, I walk off and proudly displayed my catch to Den, mom and Daryl.

Woot.
Start practising your best wtf-face now.
It gets you places, trust me.

And it scares sleazebags like these too.
Wtf.
You want a kiss from Michael? Do you? Do you? Eheheh...

Go die lar. You and your stupid laugh. >.>

Then got this annoying guy stalking me across rooms on GGC also.
= =''
Omg lar.

His name is Alex, and kononnya he's from Melaka and is 25 years old.
He has a mentality of a pre-pubescent little boy and speaks English like a 6-year-old.

No wait, I spoke way better than him when I was 3.

Forgive my being being mean.
If he were trailing you around instead of me, I think you can easily understand my annoyance.

Imagine this:

Everyday, the very moment you log on to GGC, you receive a message.
ALWAYS the same message.

got game?

And my reply is always the same, either 'no' or 'maybe later.'

And HIS reply will ALWAYS be the same.

zzz
why not now?

Then my reply is always the same...oh wait.
I never reply after that.
-.-''

I thought I finally got rid of him after my 3-week-long absence from GGC.
But nooo...the very night I got home from US, I logged on - all excited to play with my friends again.

And there it is:

got game???

WTF MAN.
Killed my mood only. =/

I can't even remember where he came from. -.-
Apparently he joined one of my games and got attached to me.

your game no lag hehehe can i join?

So one day I gave in.

"Yes, I'm playing."

We joined Max's game together.
I hoped he'd be satisfied and I could bid him good riddance after layaning him once.

...

But oh NOOO now he follows me around.

"got game?"
"no"
"max no host???"

Wafak man! as Vivienne likes to say (damn catchy la that phrase = =)
Now he follows my friends around also la!

Freaking cannot escape man.
I have no heart to ask Max or whoever who's hosting to kick him also.
I should, but I choose to flee to other rooms for cover instead. x.x

=/

That day, I saw him come online.
I vanished 'offline' immediately, hoping to avoid the inevitable 'got game?'

why u see me come online then you go away?

"OMG!"
I said to Sherman and KC.
"Don't reply, lol."

So I ignored him.

did i say sumthing wrg to you???

Ignore. Ignore.

if got sorry la...

Ignore him, dammit!

why u not talking to me??

WALAOEH #($*&#&^@

zzzzzzzz nvm la

Phew.


Wth, I thought when you're offline GGC doesn't allow you to pm someone!
What do you mean, if it's only 'appear offline' then can?
LIKE THAT EVERYONE WILL KNOW YOU'RE PRETENDING LA, aiyo!

Lol.
I'm finding the whole thing really funny now.
Until he comes on and hunts me down later.

It's damn freaky wei.
You change room, and then you see him enter the room also.
Then I hop again.
He follows.
What the crap! xD
Very flattering. But it gets old after a while.

I'd remove him from my list, but somehow he keeps reappearing there. :S
Random people keep adding me to their buddy list, and I automatically reject.

But then, when I sign on the next day - there they are, sitting on my list like they have the right to be there!

I delete them, but they keep coming back, zz.
GG sucks.
Need I even mention the time Sherman SOMEHOW ended up on my banlist and caused us a hellota trouble, cause he couldn't joined the games I hosted?

Grr.

Be like that la!
Simply add people I don't like, and delete my friends. -.-
Blahhhhhh. x.x

Okay, done ranting. =x
Will be back with more tomorrow, muahahha!


Song of the Day:

"Never Lies - Lupe Fiasco"

I'm so tired. =( And I have no dinner.
But I DO have chocolate. ^^

Bed head

Bedhead.

That's what they gave me during break today.

Swarna told me that there was 'some hair thingy' going on in the carpark, so we decided to check it out.

She insisted on having her hair done, so I was like oh yeah, count me in.
Hello, my mom has been doing my hair since I was born; I have never smelled the air inside a salon, much less have my hair styled by a hairdresser.

Think I would pass this up meh?
Yea right.

As long as they didn't take a pair of scissors to my hair, dye it, or curl/straighten it, I thought it'd be fine.

So I sat there and waited for a free seat.

The guy in charge saw me waiting and asked me:

"Oh, you had your hair done already!"
"Er. No."
"Ah? Ok, after this guy finishes then you go ok?"
"Sure."

Ahahaha, I managed to get ahead of several guys waiting in line. =P

Swarna went first.
They took out her hair comb and curled her wavy hair.
It looked great, so I was rather optimistic after that.

(We saw a tragedy of a hairstyle earlier - short hair straightened except for one super boing-y curl on the right side = ='')

Finally, it was my turn.
I sat down.
Immediately she stuck her fingers in my hair and flipped my fringe over.

...

I spent 7 years with a left parting and FINALLY got the guts to change it to the right side last year - and here she is, flipping it back over. o_o''

Then she took this disgusting, sticky-looking comb and ran it through the hair at the back of my head. She lifted my hair up clump by clump and did this up-and-down motion, so my hair was all rumpled looking.

She shaped the hair at the top my head, gathered it and swept it to the right side of my face.

Then my phone rang.
I stood up (and scared the hell out of the hairstylist, I might add, wahaha)

"Sorry, phone call."

--

"H'lo?"
"Hello where are you?"
"Er, in the carpark."
"Can you come up ah? To the second floor there, call Swarna they all also!"
"Huh why?"
"Neh, we want to complain and change our ESL teacher, you guys coming or not?"
"Oh oh sure, where are you again?"
"The office thingy on the second floor la! Come now ok!"
"Eh eh wait...I'm doing my hair..."
"DOING YOUR HAIR? Walao we want to complain about our English teacher and "eh eh wait, I'm doing my hair?" Oh my god! Hahahahaha!"
"Cannot meh?"
"Wah, doing your hair summore ah...come la!"
"Coming la coming la, hahahaha."
"K seeyou."

Vivienne reminds me of a damn semangat-ed version of myself.
Today we got a 30 minute lecture from our ESL teacher.

Besides many many DUH points, she made a mistake of saying:

I'm sure you all have brains. Only most of you don't know how to use it.

=/ We took offence.
Official complaint time, muhahahaha!

But I digress from the topic.

Anyway.

I sat back down in the chair with a 'sorry ah!'
The hairstylist took this can of hairspray and proceeded to shower me in chemicals. = =
Then she fished out a bottle of gel and gelled my fringe to the side.

"Done."
"Thanks."

--

"Swarna let's go!"
"Ha why?"
"Neh, just now ah, we want to complain about our teacher, come come let's go, Vivienne panggil d!"
"...wait, can I just..."

She gestured behind her.

A white background.
She was holding a placard that said '55'
A photographer.

OH SHIT.

"Please enter your contact details there."

The photographer gestured to a laptop.
I rolled my eyeballs and did so.
Then he handed me '56' and I got my mugshot picture taken.

...

Loreal Professional was looking for a hair model.
If you get chosen, you get 500 bucks wei! And some other cool stuff too.

But I doubt I'll get it, lol. I was glaring at the camera - aiyo hurry up dammit!
Unless scowling is back in fashion. =/

Anyhow, the end product was bedhead.

Seriously scruffy hair. Woot.
I could have done the same thing just by not combing my hair when I wake up, and sweeping my hand through it instead. xD

But I'm not that hardworking la, what for 'style' my hair every morning like that?
College only.

Plus I can almost feel the chemicals seeping into my scalp, poisoning my roots and potentially causing my hair to fall out in the future. >.<''

But at least people liked it.
=)

My friends thought it was cool.

Steph you're so cuuuuuute la!"

Har. Har. Har.
Wait la. Wait 'til you see my not-cute face, then you start running like hell.

Whoa, that's hot!

Lol, Paris Hilton wannabes. = =''
Only guys. And they said it at the same time, wtf hahaha!
(They're cousins., same thoughts? =/)

Well anyway, I can't wait to wash all the product out of my hair, but I'm gonna keep it in for now so I can show Den and mom. ^^

Anyway, we reached the programme office (that's where Vivienne meant) and I was all semangat-ed to lodge a complaint.

See how much I love the authorities? =)
Can't wait to foster a closer relationship with them.

So Vivienne and I syok sendiri, marched in the office and asked for Mrs. Quek.

"Eh! She's not here la!"
"Whaaaaaat?"
"Wait ah, I ask them."

--

"Excuse me, where's Mrs. Quek?"
"She's out for lunch."
"Oh."

--

"Walao! Damn potong stim la you! We all so semangat-ed rush up here...then tak jadi pula! What la! Hahahaha!"
"Yala yala, you la - I'm doing my hair~"
"Hahahaha, yea what. = ="

Nevermind. We'll give it another try tomorrow.
Wish us luck.

We don't attract trouble, we go looking for it. ;o)


Song of the Day:

"Heyya - Outkast"

Shake it~ Ahahaha...