Monday, March 31, 2008

Html Dreams

That's what we're doing for our 2nd IT project.

"Does anyone know what html is?"
"..."
"Hypertext..."
"Markup language."

o_o''

Omfg.
Geek much?
The words were out of my mouth before I knew it.
How did I even know what html stood for?

"Yes, correct!"

She looked slightly pleased for once.
=/

Oh well.
I showed Swarna the existence of hex codes and she was delighted and fascinated at the same time.

"Try entering a 6-digit code instead of 'Red.'"
"Can you DO that?"
"Can~"
"...Ohmygosh! That is so cool!"

It's so refreshing to find someone so enthusiastic and unjaded. =D

This project also carries 140 marks, but unlike the previous one, we can do this project individually...or in pairs!

-pinches thigh-

"You have GOT to be my partner!"
"Okayokayokayokay!"

***

Yesterday, my moral group filmed our compulsory video at My Place - the hostel opposite Taylor's where Shu Qing is staying.

There were 7 of us: Shu Qing, Suet Mun, Siew Mun, Ju Laine, Sam, Sheng and I.
So we were filming an epic story on road bullies. =O

Sheng is supposed to over Suet+Siew Mun's car and make them pull over, while he takes out this big stick and threatens them.

All was well - I was in the back seat of Suet+Siew Mun's car - Sheng stormed over the the car, whacked the window.

Shouted at them. Banged menacingly on the window.

OPEN UP! OPEN UP!
What the hell? No! Ohmygod, what is he going to do? Oh god, oh god.

Sheng stalks back to his car and throws the driver's seat door open and peers inside.
Furiously, he yanked the back seat door open.

He whirls around with his arms opened.

"WHERE'S MY STICK? WHERE'S MY STICK?"

I look up from the camera screen as everyone cracked up.

"THE STICK! THE STICK! HAHAHA OMG PAISEH! O_O"

I pulled out the stick from behind me as everyone laughed/glared at me.

"I was playing with it ma...x.x Nah. Your stick la. Haiyo. Sorry, sorry."

It ends with WHERE'S MY STICK? and me going HAHAHAHAHHA in the background. xD
I'll post the video up as soon as I can get my hands on it.

We made Sam do his thing in the video - just for kicks.
Speaking of kicks, the bloody boy kicked me in the shin while spinning on his hands.
The camera was rolling and I had to hold back my cry of pain and the sudden urge to strangle him. =.=

You can also see my impromptu confrontation with gangsta Sheng - all filmed from the back so you can only see Sheng's face and my back. o.o
Oh well.

=D
Sheng says I'm more gangsta than he is, mwahahaha.
Only I wasn't dressed the part. =(
He was wearing some jacket and singlet and ring-on-a-chain and all and I was in a white t-shirt and jeans.

=( Gosh. I need a haircut. My hair from the back looks like a nest. o_O
-shakes head-
The wind was strong that day.
Blame the wind.

***

Btw, today's the 31st.
Do you know what that means?

Let me tell you what that means.
It means your mom calls you during ESL class smack in the middle of Sam's presentation, earning you glares from people all around as you hastily cancel the call and switch to silent mode.

When I saw mom on the caller ID, I kept the phone in my hand, in case it rang again - who knew what was up?

Sure enough, 15 minutes later, it started vibrating in my palm.
Getting up silently, I saluted teacher.

"Sorry, I have to take this call."

She nods and I exited the classroom.

"What happened? I'm in the middle of class and my friend's presentation got interrupted! T_T"
"...oh. What ice cream flavours do you want ah?"
"-____________________-"

Sigh.

Every 31st of the months that HAVE a 31st, Baskin Robbins gives a 31% discount on their handpacked ice cream. There ya go.

The BIG emergency.

Lol.
Ling forgot all about it, and I also did.
T_T Sowwie for not reminding y'all.

In May, okay? =x

***

ARGH WTF period pain. T____T
I feel like dying, can?

I don't wanna go to school tomorrow - I can barely stay upright.
But it's a very very special day tomorrow and I cannot possibly miss it!
Maybe Wednesday when the pain is at it's peak.

Sniff.

I want chocolate. T_T

But I have a sore throat to top the nausea all off.
...

Super sigh.
Uber sigh.
Double sigh.
Triple sigh.
Quadruple sigh.
...5 x sigh.

I had a sweet dream this afternoon.
It's been a long time since I've had a pleasant dream - I've been plagued by nightmares for a while.

I'll tell you about it later.

The first dream I had was NOT pleasant.
It was about a house on a hill.
Me and someone - presumably mom, were going to check it out cause it was SO cheap, there must be something wrong with it.

There was a storm above and high tension wires marring the skyline.
It looked remarkably like the ashram in Bangsar.
I fled down a steep hill - barefoot. Thorns pierced my feet all the way down.

Until I reached tarmac - and heaved a sigh of relief. No more thorns.
I treaded lightly and suddenly I was falling - into the blackness of the tarmac.

I fell onto a body, lit by a dim white light with particles of dust swirling around.
At first I was happy. I smiled and ran my fingers through his hair.
Then, he wouldn't wake up despite my shaking and caressing the body - horror intensified and set in.
I fled but I couldn't escape the otherwise pitch black room.

Scene skip.

Next scene, I was on a pier.
I was staring into the water, fascinated by the colourful leaves swirling about in the calm water.
2 of my friends - I can't remember whom - were in the water wading about, calling me to join them.

Slowly I walked into the water.
I liked it.
I immersed myself fully and followed their voices, swimming in their direction.
There was something colourful floating on the surface of the water. My friends started chasing after it.

I swam after them.
Suddenly, a current picked up.
They were swept off in different directions, and I was drowning...
Which is utter bullshit cause I KNOW how to swim.
But the currents were sucking me under and I was going to be smashed against this nasty looking brown rock when I told myself:

FUCK IT. JUST WAKE UP, CAN YOU?

I woke up.
I grabbed my handphone and it read 15.47.
Only 15 minutes had passed since I fell asleep.
What an intense dream.

Over the years I have acquired the ability to wake myself up from nightmares as soon as I realise that it IS a nightmare, and not reality.

Thank god.
Cause I totally believe in this theory that if you die in your sleep, you're gonna die in real life too - or at least be partially affected in the mind.

Sigh. See what I mean by nightmares. (Daymares? -.-)

Even the so-called good dream wasn't entirely good - this was after the above scenes and when I went back to sleep.

Whatever, it involves passing out in pain (ha. ha. sounds good already doesn't it?) on the floor.
Then I get picked up and carried to a huge fluffy bed and sayang-ed while been given warm water to drink until I finally pass out again.

But it felt nice to be cared for - to not be alone in your suffering.

But it does not end well.
The warm presence that found me and kissed my forehead before laying me down to sleep again vanished. I woke up - in the dream - and stumbled into a dimly lit bathroom.

I don't know what happened, but it wasn't good.
I was trapped and I whited out again.

=_=

Next few scenes involved swimming pools, beaches and books.
It was not as nice as it sounds.
It was horribly eerie.

I mean, the setting was gorgeous.
Bright sunny sky, blue pool, powder fine sand, intricate lace-patterned garden chairs, stone steps leading to multiple pools...

But something was missing.

Living beings.
Besides me, it was utterly devoid of living beings.

I felt a presence in the air - like some people were there, but I couldn't see them.
So I was sitting half-submerged in the pool alone, reading a book.

There was a splashing in a water.
I turned to look.
Ripples.

A shadow in the corner of my eye.
That horrible presence that I couldn't shake.

I left the pool and started to walk away, but as I walked I seemed to get nowhere.
It was all the same - the same resort-like facade; the same menacing presence in the air.

I woke up.

Nearly every detail vivid in my mind.

Sigh. My dreams are no run-of-the-mill horror flicks - no madman chasing you, hungry for your blood; no billions of spiders surroundings you, their eyes glowing red.

It's terrifying in a more subtle, stalker-like kind of way.

I don't get it.


Song of the Day:

"Come What May - Nicole Kidman/Ewan McGregor"

Woot. I'm a sucker for cheesy songs.

Sunday, March 30, 2008

Wishlist

Early wishlist for my birthday! =D


1. Ink Exchange (Sequel to Wicked Lovely)
Melinda Marr
Release: April 29, 2008

***


2. The Host: A novel
Stephenie Meyer
Release: May 6, 2008

***

3. The Battle of the Labyrinth (Percy Jackson and the Olympians, Book 4)
Rick Riordan
Release: May 6, 2008

***

4. The Time Paradox (Artemis Fowl, Book 6)
Eoin Colfer
Release: July 15, 2008

***

5. Breaking Dawn (The Twilight Saga, Book 4) (Hardcover)
Stephenie Meyer
Release: August 2, 2008

***
6. Dark Whispers (Unicorn Chronicles Book III)
Bruce Coville
Release: August 1, 2008

***


7. Brisingr (Inheritance, Book 3)
Christopher Paolini
Release: September 20, 2008

As you can see, all of the books are sequels of some sort, or from an author I'm already loyal to. So no chance of me not liking the book. =3

Oh.
I just noticed that more than half the books won't be available by my birthday.
...
=(

Nevermind. Just wish me happy birthday then. ^^


Song of the Day:

"Wish You Were Here - Incubus"

amazon.com rocks. Hahaha.

Saturday, March 29, 2008

Kena tagged again weh

- You -
First Name - Stephanie
Nickname - Steph, Stephie, Dear, Darling, Honey, Hunnie, Hunny, Poofie, Cookie, Fernee, (E)Stefan(ia)
Name you wish you had - Used to want the name Alexis
What do people normally mistake your name as - Susannah, Elizabeth (Wtflol,) Tiffany
Birthday - 5th June 1991
Birthplace - Pantai Hospital
Time of Birth - 2.41 pm
Single or taken - Invisible ;D
Zodiac sign - Gemini

-Your Appearence-
How tall are you - 173.5 cm/ 5' 8"
Wish you were taller - Nah, i'm fine. =)
Eye color - Black/brown
Eye color you want - I've always been fascinated by green. But I think I'll look silly with green eyes. xD
Natural Hair color - Black, then Brown
Current Hair color - Brown
Short or long hair - Short.
Ever dye your hair a bizarre color - Was gonna go purple/silver, but shirked at the thought of unhealthy hair.
Last time you did something dramatic with your hair - Did a boycut last year. Gave all my teachers high blood pressure. -_-
Glasses or contacts - Depends on what time I slept the previous night.
Do you wear make-up - Lip gloss, but rarely. I don't remember to, haha.
Ever had hair extensions - Have considered - for colouring purposes.
Paint your nails - Black/Silver + Purple for now
Bath and Body products? Bath and Body Works, Body Shop, Schwarzkopf

-In the opposite gender-
What color eyes - I've never seen a guy with truly black eyes - I'll be fascinated if I do.
What color hair - I like brown (not DVD seller brown la Ling -.-'')
Shy or Outgoing - Depends on the circumstances. Both have their perks.
Looks or personality - Personality.
Sexy or Cute - Both, DUR! Hahahaha. But cute > sexy.
Serious or Fun - Capable of being both, each at the appropriate times.
Older or Younger than you - Doesn't matter. Just not much either way. +3 years/-1 year
A turn on - Same as Ling. Guys who play instruments rock. =D
A turn off - Irrational anger - or just irrationality in general.

-This or that-
Flowers or Chocolate - CHOCOLATE! DUH!
Pepsi or Coke - Coke.
Rap or Rock - Rock. Dur.
Relationship or One night stand - Relationship.
School or Work - Work, if it's something I love doing. The money is a plus. =]
Love or Money - I've been lucky, money has never really been a concern for me (except this month - mom has reimbursed me by the way, I'm no longer broke, lol) So Love > Money.
Movies or Music - Music. Sometimes movies put me to sleep.
Country or City - Short-term = country; Long-term = city.
Sunny or Rainy days - Rainy! I love rain. =D
Friends or Family - ...

-Have you ever-
Lied - -_- What a question.
Stole something - Yes.
Smoked - I think I'd die coughing. =/
Hurt someone close to you - I dunno. I'm pretty clueless. ^^''
Broke someone's heart - Depends what type of broken. Lol.
Had your heart broken - Nah, it's just a fracture. Nothing that can't be fixed.
Wish you were a prince/princess - YES. Fairytale royalty ftw!
Liked someone who was taken - Nope.
Shaved your head - Maybe when I was a baby...?
Been in love - Ahahaha! Nic just asked me this today. To which I replied 'I dunno.' Potong stim!
Used chopsticks - HAHAHA. What a sight to behold.
Sang in the mirror to yourself - Yes.

-Favorites-
Flower - Deep red velvety roses. I don't like the cheap ones even if it's a nice red - I think I just like to touch them, lol. Also like the passion flower. Purple =3
Candy - CHOCOLATE. Nyumyumyum!
Song - Changes with time.
Scent - Dunno. Normally I don't like perfume, but that my classmate smelt really nice. *sniffsniff* Ahhh. Luckily the dude didn't notice, hahaha.
Color - Purple! For now. =)
Movie - Can't choose one.
Singer - Same as above.
Word - RAWR!
Junk food - Chocolate, again.
Website - Friend's blogs. =)
Location - In front of the computer/In bed with a book
Animal - Dog

Ever cried over someone - Yes.

Is there anything you wish you could change about yourself - To be more constant. Sometimes I confuse myself =S I seem to change personality constantly, it worries me.

Do you think you're attractive - It depends how my self-esteem is faring that day. =D Today is a yes, even though I looked and felt like a druggie. Think I was on a sugar high. ^^

If you had to choose a fairytale as your life what would you choose - I can't think of any that I would like. Can I make up my own? =x

Do you play any sports - Nope. I'm very out of shape. But if you ask me to play, I probably will - I enjoy it, just can't be bothered to take the time and effort to.

List (8) random facts about yourself and tag (8) people

1. I fake illness when I wanna sleep in class - ironic, it is, when the times when I REALLY am sick teacher thinks I'm faking it.
2. I love the colour pink.
3. My passion for soft toys has been reignited last year. -hugs Chendoll-
4. My left hand has a 10-key span. =/
5. I'm spoilt - I no longer like locally produced chocolates unless I'm really craving.
6. I daydream when I play the piano, but no one appears to notice. Haha. I also tend to pay full attention to the surrounding people's conversation when I play. x3
7. I'm actually getting bored of DotA. Miracle, anyone? o.o Pokemon ftw!
8. Some days I'm terrified of being alone, but other days I seem to be allergic to social scenes. Hahaha. Would you hate me if I said I actually grew to enjoy my mom's absence for a week?

I feel guilty, but sometimes it's such a relief to come home and lock yourself up in your room without having to 'talk about your day.' Especially since I'm extremely irritable after coming back from school, and I tend to snap if someone tried to initiate a face-to-face conversation.

I'm more well-behaved online. o.o Lol.


8 people I tag:

Everyone who has read this and has a blog.
Yes, that means you.

JL (Jia you shallow wuliaoness! xD)
Den (You blog is dead. T_T)
Sherm (Your first tag!)
Sunshine (When you DO get online. Tell me about ISPS too. =D)


Song of the Day:

"Nutcracker Suite - Pyotr Tchaikovsky"

#1 Get-stuck-in-your-head song.
Gonna pengsan d. Night.

Friday, March 28, 2008

More craziness

I wonder how it ever appeared to me as a good idea to sleep in my underwear.

._.

But I did (convincing myself that it was a hot, hot day) and I liked it.
!
There's just something comforting about feeling the clean sheets against your bare skin.
=]

Don't mind me, I think my brain's still a little dead.

***

So I went to the library for almost 2 hours today to finish my IT (I MADE IT) and do my English presentation slides.

The SAM March intake were using the Web, so the library was HOLYSHIT crowded.
Swarna and I were so so lucky to find someone who just left.
Then as I was idling, people kept asking me whether I was using my comp.

A girl asked me first, I told her to give me 5 minutes.
But before 5 minutes were up, the computer next to mine freed up so she took that instead.
Another guy asked me for my comp.

"Oh, take it, it's all yours."
"Thanks!"

I grab all my stuff, dropping mearly everything on the way to migrating to Siew Mun's table next to mine.

"Sorry! T_T"
"It's ok!"
"Hmmmm (talks to self) ...got everything d."
"...this is your jacket?"

-picks up my jacket-

"Oh YEA! Thanks man!"

I tke the jacket from him and promptly drop it on the floor again.
-__-
I tell you, my coordination today was complete crap.
I couldn't even use a computer properly - I kept closing important windows by mistake much to Swarna's bemusement.

Anyway he picked up the jacket and handed it wordlessly to me.

"Arrrr, thanks! ^^ Sorry ya, I'm a bit..."
He blinked amusedly at me.

RAWR!
He thought I was flirting with him!
NUUUU!
I swear! I wasn't acting bimbo on purpose! T_T

And that wasn't even the first time today weh.
I arrived at school and saw Swarna standing at the staircase.

I gave her my biggest dopey grin and held up two fingers in a peace sign.

(She was the one I was messaging this morning btw, to ask about the dress code for presentation.)

She saw me and started laughing at how formal I looked - at the first glance.
Then she saw my manic eyes and ruffled hair.


I cocked my head to one side sheepishly: ^^'v

At that moment, this tall, tall guy walked up the stairs into my line of sight and I got distracted.
I looked up at him.
He turned and looked at me.

He smiled.
=)

I was like WTF NO NO NOT ACTING CUTE FOR YOU O_O! I'M MAKING THE PEACE SIGN FOR MY SWARNA DEAR!

-grabs Swarna and runs off immediately-

Paiseh! T_T
What the crap man. I feel so blonde today. -_-

Anyway, I couldn't find my white shirt today so I stole Den's Padini. =)
It's so pretty, but it's FREAKING ANNOYING.

THE SLEEVES!

The fold is exactly where the crook of your elbow is!

Whenever you make a gesture - ANY gesture - it tickles you and you just wanna roll up your sleeves and forget it about it, but can't because if you DO scrunch up the sleeves, they look like used toilet paper.

-_-

So. I was late for my English class today.

Stephanie's perspective:

*pantpantpant*
I was running up the stairs from the Comp lab after handing in my IT project - 10 minutes late for class. I peep in the back door of my classroom. I saw teacher glaring at me, and my classmates staring equally intensely.

Oops.
I walked in the front door hurriedly with Siew Mun, Ying Qi and Deny.
There was a sharp intake of breath from my classmates and my teacher was furious.
Swarna was standing at her seat, with her arms open - obviously in the midst of explaining something.

I saluted teacher.

"Sorry. I'm so sorry I'm late!"

I slink to my seat wincing and trying to catch my breath.

Stephanie: WTF I'M GONNA COLLAPSE. *pantpantpant*

Swarna's perspective:

Group 1 finishes presentation.
We were in Group 2.

Neither Stephanie nor Ying Qi NOR Siew Mun were here yet.
Teacher calls for Group 2.

Swarna stands up.

"Well, I'm ready to do my presentation, but it will be just me as my groupmates have yet to arrive..."

Teacher opens her mouth to say something, classmates burst into laughter.

Door bangs open.
Breathless Stephanie walked into class, trailed by the rest of the group plus Deny.

Swarna: WOOT SAVED! *exhale*

----------------------------

Teacher was merciless. -_-
After running up 3 flights of stairs, I had to proceed with my presentation IMMEDIATELY.
No drinking water or anything, hello cruel teacher?
T_T

Swarna panicked, and after explaining one sentence:

"I will now pass this on to Stephanie to explain the causes and effects of domestic violence."

Me: WTF WTF WTF THIS IS YOUR SLIDE WTFFFFF? WHY ME WHY MEEE???

Swarna's eyes widen and she started gesturing wildly.
I stood up.

"Erm."

-reads from slide quickly-

I repeat the sentence quickly and fluently.

"...I will now pass this back to Swarna."

I plastered a fake smile on my face.
I glared at her and she mouthed SORRY SORRY!


In the end, I delivered my presentation at bullet train speed, stopping momentarily for almost 5 seconds in the middle gasping for air.

"I apologise, I'm very out of breath. T_T" -pantpant-

But I managed to bullshit my way through the slides - I didn't even read through them earlier, I just typed some random stuff out and stuck them in Swarna's pendrive.

"One common form of domestic violence is physical abuse. Physical abuse is where the abuser intentionally tries to cause injury, to maim or to even cause death by hitting someone physically. Examples include hitting, punching, kicking or slapping the person."


In my mind I going WTF what the hell am I talking about LOL!
I was making it all up on the spot.
And the hilarious thing was that my classmates thought that I was one of the most 'prepared' students.

HAHAHAHHAHA WTF!

And they also said I was fidgeting like CRAZY!
Especially rolling up my sleeves repeatedly as they kept rolling back down.
SCREW YOU WHITE SHIRT!

There are 3 common types of domestic violence.

*rolls sleeves crudely*

The first one I'm going to talk about is stalking.

*flips hair to the side*

Stalking is where someone follows a victim around physically, and is unwanted.

*rolls sleeves up again*

This can instill a sense of fear in the victim because...

*pause, hairflip*

And so it went something like that until the end of the presentation.
=/

"My God, you looked like you were going to beat us up!"
"And audition for a shampoo commercial at the same time - woo Sunsilk!"

-_-'' Sorry la. Forgot to do my hair this morning. I couldn't see the faces of my audience.
And it was even messier as I had just run all the way to class.

Shu Qing was so cute.

"I like what you're wearing today!"
"Thanks, why?"
"Cause, it makes you look like a girl! ^^"
"-___-"

And this was the person who said, yesterday (whilst talking about our moral film project):

"Huh? I duwan la. Sam's gonna be my boyfriend, I duwanna act d."
"HAHA! Poor Sam! KENA!"
"Stephanie leh? Stephanie, will you be my boyfriend?"
"Wha...? EXCUSE YOU! ...okay fine."
"OKAY! Steph is now my boyfriend. I'll come!"
"..."

I don't get it!
Am I such a chick magnet all of a sudden?
-_- Walaoeh.
But then, according to Swarna, guys in the library were checking me out shamelessly earlier as I walked in.

"Oh my God, that guy!"
"...?"

Needless to say, I was stoning.

"He's was like..."

*Swarna eyeballs me from head to toe and back to head*

"...ah?"
"He was totally checking you out, man!"
"...I think he was probably wondering whether I'm supposed to be a guy or a girl."
"NO LA! GOSH! You look good today!"

Then she whacks me. -_-

I LOOK GOOD TODAY?
WITH NO SLEEP AT ALL?

What, suddenly guys like the stoned-out look is it? I didn't even SEE him, for goodness sake.
I was focused on trying to walk without veering off to one side. (Which I was doing pretty often, and banging into many random passersby in the process.)

Anyway.

SO AM I SUPPOSED TO BE A GUY OR A GIRL HUH?

T_T

I don't get it!
Nowadays I can't help but think:

"Do I look like a guy? Or a girl? Guy? Girl?"


EVERYTIME I look in the mirror.
Getting damn insecure wei!
-sniff-

Nevermind.
Girls think I'm hot, and that's all that matters. =)

***

Btw, congrats to:

Nic: Whose debate team won initially, but got forfeited by default due to some bending of the rules. But it was probably great anyway.

KC: Whose drama team won 3rd place (after 2 teams who apparently bribed the judges - but I dunno if he's just sore or what, haha) Uncle KC ftw!

Sher: Who got himself a car! =O (Drool.)

Den: Who FINALLY found a place to stay! =D No more emo-ing! Whee!

ME!: For surviving the entire day without collapsing. Woots!

I.
NEED.
DOTA.

Already booked KC and Nic for the night.
Come Sher come play! =D


Song of the Day:

"My Friends - RHCP"

I feel pooped. x.x But no more IT! WHEEEEEEEE!
You can't imagine how much chocolate and sweets I ate today to keep myself alive.

I did it!

My first all-nighter as a college student.

As you can see, it as 6.30 am, and I have not slept a wink since my (3-time) interrupted nap from 4.30 to 6.

Well. At least my project is done. Except the movie, because I can't get the stupid program to work and no amount of swearing and banging the mouse on the table did any good.

Figures.

So, let me tell you what staying up all night does and probably will do to a regular 16-year-old.
Take me for example.

Kept awake from 10.30 to 6.30 by a mere few friends, a container of chocolates by my side and lots of Nightwish and Manson blaring in the background, I started pacing around my sister's room while texting my friend.

Stark naked.

It took me quite a while to realise that I hadn't a stitch of clothing on and that I should really get dressed before I catch an almighty cold, having just gotten out of the shower.

I try on a few shirts, and contemplated painting my nails greenish-purple.
I check out my hair in the mirror - I have an English presentation today.

Then I noticed.

"Fuck. No way! HAHAHAHA!"

I hadn't done up any buttons.

-_-
So now you know, sleep deprivation involves a lot of obscenity.

Finally dressed decently, I start planning on which classes to sleep in - only to discover, in utmost horror, that I have not done a bit of preperation for my English presentation.

Well.
Except for managing to put on a decent shirt.
And button it down all the way.

...

NO SLEEP LAST NIGHT.
NO SLEEP TODAY EITHER.

Gotta go to the library and do some research!

Then, Moral project after school until 5!
Straight to mom's office to pick her up at 6!
Reach home to eat dinner at 7!

Knock out til next morning at 8.

Phew. -exhales-

I'm SO going to fall terribly ill soon.
In fact, my head is starting to pound - I have this super bad feeling about my presentation.

But screw the presentation!
I just spent nearly 7 straight hours on my fucking IT project - 140 marks.

Presentation = 10 marks.

RAWR!

Imagine having a nice and relatively simple database that you created from scratch.
Recording the stock of CDs for a record company.

You suddenly decide that Genre ID is irrelevant as Genre is already stated - why complicate matters?

You delete said Genre ID field and all records relating to it.
Access autosaves the file without further prompting.

THEN!
THEN!

You discover that NOTHING works right anymore and you have to fix the WHOLE BLOODY DAMN THING AGAIN!

RAWRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!

I need some loving. T_T

-sad-


Song of the Day:

"Happy Ending - Mika"

Walao. What a song to play now. Let's hope my playlist is psychic.
-___________________-''

I WANNA DOTA! NUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Thursday, March 27, 2008

$peechless

I've never thought that I would ever say this, but...

...I'm...

...broke!

-_-

-speechless-

This is probably the first time in YEARS that I've mismanaged my money.
My mom just gave me a 300 freaking % increase in my allowance as soon as I got to college - reason being I have to pay for my breakfast AND lunch now, plus movie/outing/takei money etc.

So, where did my 200 bucks go?

T_T

To think that I used to exist on 50 bucks a month without much complaint...
200 bucks! O money, where have you gone? T_T

I have exactly 3 more ringgit left in my purse to last me tomorrow, Friday and Monday until I get next month's allowance.

Hello, starvation, anyone?

Besides taking Irene out that day...

20 bucks for movie, 5 bucks for drink, 3 bucks for the cream puff, 9 bucks on accessories.

= RM 37
Holy shit.

Plus at least 2 other movies + meal this month = around RM 40

Swarna's birthday lunch at Pizza Hut = RM 10

Library fines = RM 1.50

At least 4 slurpees this month = RM 6

Chocolate cravings = RM 3

French fry craving today = RM 7

I have NOT gone takei this month - I don't remember anyway, so that's out of the question.

RM 104.50 already!
NOT INCLUDING MY MEALS!
WTFFFF!

I should keep a cashbook. =_=''
Much as I hate accounts, I should keep track of my spending.
(I hear Den going TSKTSKTSK at me already. T_T)

Sigh. I have no choice.
Must ask mom to reimburse me for the RM 10 worth of eggs I bought while she was in India, and maybe Irene's movie ticket as guest entertainment expenses.

NOOO CANNOT!
I said I'll treat her!
T_T

Or I'll just pack food from home.
Ew.

***

To top off my horribly empty pockets, I seem to be falling sick.
-_-''
I felt fine already today - until I accepted to squares of Cadbury chocolate from Swarna.
(O chocolate provider, I am forever devoted to you!)

I started coughing and coughing and my chest hurt so bad tears started forming in my eyes.
Wadafak man!

I thought I'd be better after sleeping off my headaches yesterday in IT and ESL (and a bit of Accounts.) But NO, I still feel crappy.
No wonder I'm snapping at everyone I know. -_-
Not that I should blame that on my bad behaviour, but still...

Poor KC got yelled at gao gao just now.
Sowie hunnie! T_T
I really didn't mean it.

The dude kept calling me to help him and subsequently leaving me there to die until I finally lost it.
-_-

Come Steph come mid!
K.

I came, they fled the scene, I die a horrible bloody death in 5 seconds.
(Which was quite a feat - I didn't think an alchemist could last that long against Naga and Mag -_- Satanic + Fury ftw!)

HAHAHHAHA OMG STEPHIE!
-_________________-
Fuck you KC! T_T
Sorry la~
YOU SUCK GO DIE LAAAAA! -______-
But I wanted to give you aegis ma...T_T
...

-slap self-

Walao. I have lots of apologising to do tomorrow. -_-
And you know how I dislike that stuff.
Sigh.

Nic told me I'm a very weird person.
Dot.
Thank god I didn't yell at him for that. Blame PMS lar for my short temper. =.=''
Somehow I find it hard to get angry at a person who is so calm and collected 85% percent of the time. (15% raging mad/super emo)

-scratch head-

So does the way a person acts change the way you respond to them?
Or is it purely your own attitude?

For example:

I find it hard to be angry when I talk to JL - she may be emo sometimes but I've never really seen her raging mad.

And sometimes when I talk to Sui/Ling and their mood changes abruptedly, I can't help but find myself getting annoyed as well.

Yet, sometimes I treat my classmates as if they were invisible and didn't exist.
I refuse to meet their eyes, and merely grunt when they speak to me.
And somedays I'll be feeling really happy and go around smiling at random strangers.
._. So is them or is it just me? (I think it's just me.)

Actually today was pretty much fine.

There was this guy at Asia Cafe who was sitting next to an empty table.
Swarna and I dumped our bags on the aforementioned empty table and looked around for another chair.
The guy's table had 3 extra chairs.

"Hey, can I take this chair?"
She grabs the back of the chair.

"Um, there's someone sitting there...why don't you take that one...?"
He points to the one right next to it.

Swarna rolled her eyeballs and I stared at him, bemused.
I turned my palms up - the universal sign for 'what the heck?' (Or something like that)

"Oh, er, eh? It's the same la! Okay okay you can take that chair!"

Sheepish grin.

I burst out laughing.
Some people are so funny.

Yet, I distinctly remember times that an incident like this would have left me silently swearing how stupid these people were.

This side of me was especially dominant in secondary.
Too much estrogen in the atmosphere?
Hm. Forgive my irrational anger.
I know I'm very self-centered and that the world revolves around me so you're not allowed to be stupid and annoy me blablabla.

But I promise I'm trying to get rid of that bitchy streak.
Promise. T_T

Whao. I feel faint now.
Have IT to do, but I have no heart to get to work. x_X
Sigh.

...

Lol.
The whole post is all over the place.
I keep digressing and I don't even remember what I was saying a minute ago.
My mind's pretty much screwed up. Think the late night did me in.
(At least my IT is 75% complete. Worth falling sick? Hmmm.)

Anyway.
I'm going to bed now.
Chao.


Song of the Day:

"At the Beginning - Richard Marx and Donna Lewis"

I don't get it. What was I trying to say in the second half of the post?
HAHA I don't understand myself, so I don't expect you to.
*faints on bed*

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

The after-post discussion:

Part 1

Me vs Ling

Yi Ling says:

LOL
stephanie leng zhai
hahaha

[Stephanie] says:
i'm so lengzai :D:D
ya
HAHAHAHAH
i was like
OMIGOSH
YAY!
i mean if the fella thinks i'm a boy
not so fun la
but lengzai
i happy lo
=D

Yi Ling says:
=_=
za dou

[Stephanie] says:
-_-

Yi Ling says:
ahahahahahah
budden
i'm stuck betweeen both la
i cannot be girl or boy one
=.=

[Stephanie] says:
har?
me also lo
got guys think i'm cute, but girls also
>_>
gender confusion

Yi Ling says:
hahahahah
ure waifish
:D:D:D xD

[Stephanie] says:
. . .
waif pula
waiflike?
>_>
waif = starved homeless beggar
wafak go die lar

Yi Ling says:
wrong word =.=
nono
not waif
nvm
i forgot

[Stephanie] says:
lol
wade =_=

Yi Ling says:
i confuse this and another word =/

[Stephanie] says:
waif = kate moss
-_-

Yi Ling says:
OWH
eh
u can be model larrrrrr

[Stephanie] says:
because?

Yi Ling says:
the boyish girl look damn in
hahahah xD

[Stephanie] says:
i'm neither girl nor boy?
zz

Yi Ling says:
YES

[Stephanie] says:
good excuse -.-''

Yi Ling says:
:D:D:D
somemore tall and thin
=.=
*jeles*

[Stephanie] says:
too thin >_>

Yi Ling says:
=.= okayyla....

[Stephanie] says:
wait wait i put on some weight first, get my skin done then i'll consider
haha

Yi Ling says:
hahahahahaha

[Stephanie] says:
blame the chocolates!
T_T

Yi Ling says:
:S
chocolates make u thinner?
D=

[Stephanie] says:
-touches skin-

Yi Ling says:
owh
=_=

[Stephanie] says:
-_-

Yi Ling says:
hahahahahaah XD
my skin worse la
and im fat
and my hair

[Stephanie] says:
YOUR HAIR IS GORGEOUS

Yi Ling says:
dunno wats wrong with my hormons

[Stephanie] says:
WHINE ABOUT EVERYTHING ELSE

Yi Ling says:
D=

[Stephanie] says:
NOT THE HAIRRRRRRRRRRR
zz

Yi Ling says:
:P
ookok
my butt damn big
D=

[Stephanie] says:
better than none =/
j lo booty
yum

Yi Ling says:
=.=
em
em
she got pretty face lar

[Stephanie] says:
-shakes butt-
woot!

Yi Ling says:
watda
dot dot dotttt

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Straight konon! Ahahahah! xD

Part 2

Me vs emo KC

[Stephanie] says:
ah
okay lemme tell you smth to cheer you up

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
/ok

[Stephanie] says:
today my friend
he told me
that his friend had a crush on me
- a girl
HAHAHAH

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
oh damned
LOL

[Stephanie] says:
she thought
i was

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
HAHAHHAHHA

[Stephanie] says:
a boy
HAHAHAHA

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
SWEEEEEETTT
LOL

[Stephanie] says:
i laughed so hard

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
LMFAO
FTW!

[Stephanie] says:
my moral teacher was like
o.O
she said

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
ROFL

[Stephanie] says:
i was so damn lengzai
must intro me to her

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
ROFL

[Stephanie] says:
HAHAHAHAHA

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
]ROL
fA!r4
!@$
FTW !

[Stephanie] says:
yes

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
HAHAHHAH

[Stephanie] says:
i'm a hot dude alright

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
xDDDD

[Stephanie] says:
xD

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
SWEEET
lol
xD
ROFL
>_>
ROFL LA
LOL

[Stephanie] says:
but
not the first time lo
first time in college nia
haha


† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
ROFL
LOL
GAY

[Stephanie] says:
me = chick magnet

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
LOL

[Stephanie] says:
=D
YES

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
LMFAO

[Stephanie] says:
WOOT

† KC † - Heartthrobbing says:
LOL TAK PUAS WEH

[Stephanie] says:
^.^

-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Project cheer up: Successful?
=D

Now I'ma drag the perma-emo boy to release stress by way of DotA.
Wheeee~


Song of the Day:

"Superman - Five for Fighting"

Slurp.

What would you rather be?

"Omg, that guy is so hot! Ahhhh so lengzhai!"
"Er..."
"Is he from your class? Omigosh you must intro meeeeeee!"
"Um, you know. She's a girl. -_____________-"
"Oh."

HAHAHAHAHA!

So, my dear Ling, this brings up the same question I've asked you before:

Would you rather be seen as a pretty boy or an ugly girl?

Hm. Personally I'm rather flattered - which I think wasn't what Sam was going for at all.
I mean, this isn't the first time a girl thought I was cute - I highly doubt in a feminine way, though - so if he was trying to make me feel insulted, he was on the wrong track. =|


I still remember once, when I stepped off the school bus in Form 2 or 3, this junior who sat on the same bus stopped me and said:

"You're very beautiful, you know."

-girl stares up at me with round eyes-

"..."

-girl looks at me expectantly, smiling-

"Er. Thank you."

-I hurry off bemusedly-

"Okay, see you later!" She calls after me, still smiling stupidly.

Wah.
I think mom would be happy.
She'd say:

SEE! You asked for a boycut, I DID a boycut and it WORKED! Nyehnyehnibooboo~


Or something to that effect. xD
So Ling, my partner in being gender-mistaken, what would your answer be? =]

Ooh boy, gimme hot dude over ugly chick anytime!
Don't blame me for being superficial; that's how the world works. =/

Sam was right when he said "Watch out for the lesbians! They're gonna love you."

Love me.
Indeed.
*blows kisses*


100% straight ftw. =D


Song of the Day:

"If You Could Only See - Tonic"

Dont ask me why I like my hair like this - it's like me asking you why you like peanut butter sandwiches.
Whatcha gonna say?

Monday, March 24, 2008

Lameness =D


Sometimes I wonder how such different people can be such good friends. =/

End of my berak from monotony.
Back to horrible, horrible IT.
=( Save me.


Song of the Day:

"Jump - Madonna"

I screwed up my presentation today and got a blister on my toe.
-fake grin-

Help meeeeeeeee! T_T

Click.



-puts head in noose-

Save me.

Please.


Song of the Day:

"Candyman - Christina Aguilera"

Stephie nubcookie. ;D
Music is keeping awake, thank goodness. T_T

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Yum yum

Irene just went back about an hour ago.
This is the first time she's come down from Japan in 3 years.
I thought it'd be really awkward seeing someone for the first time in so long, but it was fine - her greeting upon seeing me reminded my instantly why I like her so much. =)

"Irene!"
"Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii =D"

-hand up-

Our palms met with a resounding SMACK.
This was followed by a feminine version of the guys handshake.
Haha.

Anyway, I was a pretty sucky host yesterday due to my lack of sleep - 4.30 am to 9.00 where I was awoken by the incessant ringing of the house phone; and 9.10 to 10.00 where Siew woke me up by way of sms; and 10.02 to 10.30 where my alarm went off; and finally, 10.31 to 11.00 where Siew called me cause I didn't bother to reply her.

You do the math la.

(Thank god she called me, cause I somehow missed the snooze button and turned the alarm off instead - I would've missed my piano class if she didn't call =/)

So, I tried to make for it this morning by giving her a yummy breakfast.
Well, I almost failed again by making her call me to wake me up from my deep slumber.
She woke up at 8.10 - I woke up around 10.30.

PAISEH.

But she said she's an early riser anyway - she took a shower and stuff first.

-covers face-

So after shaking the last bits of sleep from my head, I stumbled downstairs to dig up food for Irene.

There were no biscuits, no bread, nor cereal.
I went on a scavenger hunt we ended eating:

1. Indonesian layer cake
2. Cadbury chocolate cookies from America
3. Japanese cookies which she brought from duh, Japan
4. Pepperidge Farm wafer rolls from Australia
5. Coffee for her, Milo for me
6. Vanilla ice cream (with cookies for her, Hershey's chocolate syrup for me)

I could barely walk after that, I was so full.
It makes me wonder why I don't eat breakfast like this more often.
Maybe cause I don't have anyone to share it with. =/

Then, we went to Pavilion so I could show her around the new mall and catch Be Kind Rewind at GSC.

We ate:

7. Beard Papa's Cream Puff
8. Double scoop of Baskin Robbins with cookies and wafers
9. Sample cup of green tea milk

And NOW, I'm sitting here eating Korean noodles as I type.
I have not had solid food for the whole day.

No wonder I'm so FAT.
-______________-

Quality has been replaced by quantity.
Do you think it'll work?
Haha. I certain like this arrangement much much much more than the traditional 3 solid meals a day. =)

And the Korean noodles are starting to grow on me - despite me gasping for water at the first swallow. So spicy! T_T but oh so delicious.
And they make my lips so so red and swollen after that it hurts.
Well, Ling can stop complaining I have thin 'cruel' lips now. >_>

I'm gonna finish them all before Den comes back. Mwahahahah!

***

Got another clan invite today.
I have NO idea how these people find me - it's puzzling.
They aren't in the same room, I've never spoken or played with them before or anything.
It's just so completely random.

And they have rather funny names too.

KUKIK: Ah? Also known as LoD. But dunno what it means.
[ADM]: Apparently stands for Admin. Riiiiiiight.

And Jie innocently asked me to join Zerick's clan too - pawnm or something. I almost laughed myself to death at the notion. The poor guy is so clueless.
._.

And I think Viv sent Sean after me to get me back into her clan.
But that day her clan members nudged me while I was hosting and I promptly quit after it brought back memories of CCB NOOB LAGGER HOST CHAO HAI blablabla.

=_=

Yes la, I know my comp is so noob it can't handle a simple nudge.
Sorry. Too lazy to do another disk cleanup. =/

-tw3-

The name of Nic's soon-to-be clan.
I promptly told him he was out of his freaking mind - how could he even consider asking poor traumatized me? T_T

Haha, I'm kidding lar.
But we'll see when the time comes.
(*cough* I love the cute white bunny ---> Clan guest icon =D)

Rawr, my lips are on fire.
But well worth the suffering. ^^


Song of the Day:

"With Teeth - NIN:

Presentation tomorrow; have not read presentation question; Stephanie dies tomorrow.