Every muscle in my body tensed up as yet another arrow missed its mark.
This is not regular noobness. This was the result of the horrible fact that I will be lonely these holidays sinking in slowly.
And also, sleep deprivation.
I was up til 5 something in the am, and I didn't have my afternoon nap today. Instead, I chose to bug Chia for a game. He had one last slot for me and I took it without further thought.
And oh, how I fed today!
Glorious suicides, muddled leaps and feikei arrows galore!
Half the time I didn't even know what I was doing. For heaven's sakes, I leaped in the middle of a battle that I could have won.
I didn't bother replying immediately, knowing that saying 'I have no idea' would probably incense him more.
Instead I waited for a quiet moment to message him privately and apologise for my utter noobness. I wasn't feeling well.
He said, no, it's ok; he even fired back a retort when the enemy started teasing my Mirana's lack of skills.
But no, I don't think he'll ever play with me again voluntarily - not after the way I screamed at him yesterday. And I don't think I'll ask him to play with me again, out of shame - look at the way he treated me with a level-head while all I could do yesterday was yell incessantly.
Although I'm glad to have my living space back after Viv and Swarna went home after living in my house for a week, I feel an immeasurable amount of dread fill my stomach.
The holidays are here, and I almost wish that I were still in college - even if I have to sit for more tedious papers just to interact with other people my age. Not that I talk to them on a regular basis, but I like just having company around to fill the silence that I experience when I'm home alone.
Sui and B's holidays have yet to start - A-levels, grr.
Ling's term JUST started.
Viv asked me to follow her to Singapore to watch the DotA tournament, but I have to follow mom to Melaka instead. =_=
I have 2 wedding dinners for the same cousin to attend, and I have only one dress that I'm not sure I can fit into.
(Heaven forbid that I've lost weight and the dress suddenly falls off while we're doing the yam-seng, leaving me standing there with nothing on but my underwear and a wine glass in my hand.)
I don't know about my other friends, but it seems that everyone who has asked me out has made plans for the weekends - all 3 of which have been taken up by plans of my mom.
...
Looks like these 2 weeks I'll be staying at home with the computer and piano for company.
*heartbreak*
Song of the Day:
"LSF - Kasabian"
I don't even think I'll have a party. No mood.
I shall wait until jie jie comes home.
This is not regular noobness. This was the result of the horrible fact that I will be lonely these holidays sinking in slowly.
And also, sleep deprivation.
I was up til 5 something in the am, and I didn't have my afternoon nap today. Instead, I chose to bug Chia for a game. He had one last slot for me and I took it without further thought.
And oh, how I fed today!
Glorious suicides, muddled leaps and feikei arrows galore!
Half the time I didn't even know what I was doing. For heaven's sakes, I leaped in the middle of a battle that I could have won.
"WHY DID YOU LEAP?"
I didn't bother replying immediately, knowing that saying 'I have no idea' would probably incense him more.
Instead I waited for a quiet moment to message him privately and apologise for my utter noobness. I wasn't feeling well.
He said, no, it's ok; he even fired back a retort when the enemy started teasing my Mirana's lack of skills.
But no, I don't think he'll ever play with me again voluntarily - not after the way I screamed at him yesterday. And I don't think I'll ask him to play with me again, out of shame - look at the way he treated me with a level-head while all I could do yesterday was yell incessantly.
Although I'm glad to have my living space back after Viv and Swarna went home after living in my house for a week, I feel an immeasurable amount of dread fill my stomach.
The holidays are here, and I almost wish that I were still in college - even if I have to sit for more tedious papers just to interact with other people my age. Not that I talk to them on a regular basis, but I like just having company around to fill the silence that I experience when I'm home alone.
Sui and B's holidays have yet to start - A-levels, grr.
Ling's term JUST started.
Viv asked me to follow her to Singapore to watch the DotA tournament, but I have to follow mom to Melaka instead. =_=
I have 2 wedding dinners for the same cousin to attend, and I have only one dress that I'm not sure I can fit into.
(Heaven forbid that I've lost weight and the dress suddenly falls off while we're doing the yam-seng, leaving me standing there with nothing on but my underwear and a wine glass in my hand.)
I don't know about my other friends, but it seems that everyone who has asked me out has made plans for the weekends - all 3 of which have been taken up by plans of my mom.
...
Looks like these 2 weeks I'll be staying at home with the computer and piano for company.
*heartbreak*
Song of the Day:
"LSF - Kasabian"
I don't even think I'll have a party. No mood.
I shall wait until jie jie comes home.
2 comments:
i can't wait to go home! :D
i got friend-sick.
wanna meet up with you guys. =(
sobs.
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